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It came as a shock when they first got together. Going from enemies to lovers in a week is sort of fast. But they couldn't bring themselves to regret the change. It certainly was better than them, well Shizuo, tearing up the town. Sure Izaya loved mind screwing with the blond but now he could do that in a more beneficial way. And Shizuo loved fighting with the red eyed informant. Even if he did wish Izaya would stop with some of his little quirks. Hell he even composed a list.
Quirk 1:
Izaya's way of always having to be in charge. Shizuo was the seme, damnit.
Quirk 2:
How Izaya would screw with everyone's mind. Even little kids.
Quirk 3:
How he would keep all these secrets. Not trusting him even though they were going out.
Quirk 4:
Staying up late working. Sure work is important, but they need to find a middle ground.
Quirk 5:
Being such a damn know-it-all.
Quirk 6:
Calling him by that damn nickname even though he had told him time and time again to stop.
Quirk 7:
Being a complete jerk and refusing to cuddle after doing the deed.
Quirk 8:
Being slightly suicidal since he seems to love high places.
Quirk 9:
Not knowing when to leave or when he is wanted.
Quirk 10:
Still getting him in trouble just for the fun of it.
And the list went on and on. After a month, he had written it all down and had contemplated showing it to Izaya to see if he could at least try for some of them. But he decided that it wouldn't be nice of him, so he just threw it away. Not believing that Izaya would actually empty the trash and see it.
Izaya's pov
Time to empty the trash. Oh look what is that. What would my dear Shizu-chan try to hid from me. My birthday is coming up. I probably shouldn't read it but oh well. He laughed to himself before starting to skim through the note. Slowly, his smile faded into a deep frown. The list seemed to go on forever before finally coming to an end.
Is this how he really feels? Fuck. Definitely not a birthday present. He stuffed the note into his pocket before finishing emptying out the trash. After coming back in he went to go sit on the couch they had picked together. He brought his legs up to his chest and held on to them for dear life. Trying to figure out why he always was such a failure to the people he cared about.
Time skip
"Hey Shizu-chan, what if I told you I had a twin brother who looked exactly like me but who's personality was the complete opposite? What would you do?" Izaya question Shizuo. He was draped over his shoulders trying to have as much contact as he could.
"Seriously? Wow, I thought you only had your sisters. Hmm. I don't know what I would do." He contemplated for a few more seconds before turning back to face Izaya. Time seemed to slow when he began to talk again.
"I guess I would wonder why I didn't meet him first. But I'm glad I have you." He said, trying to be honest while trying not to hurt Izaya's feelings. But the damage was done already. And before he could even try and fix it, he ruined it even further by shrugging out of Izaya's grip and getting up and leaving the room.
"Izaya, I think I'm going to have to run. I told Celty I would hang out with her later so I better get going. Don't wait up. Love you." He walked out of the large apartment whose walls were slowly coming in closer to trap his dark haired lover who had simply nodded when he said he was leaving. Little did he know that Izaya was having a mental breakdown.
Shit. Why did he say that? Aren't I enough? Why does the room seem to be getting smaller? Why does he have to be like everyone else? I thought he was different. Everyone always likes Psyche better than me. I'm so stupid. Did I really think he would be the one to prove me wrong? Even my parents chose him over me. My sister too. Even the few friends I had before I met Shinra, but then again he probably likes Psyche better too. God I am such an idiot.
And so, the great and mighty Izaya laid down and cried himself to sleep.
A/N: Hello! Well this idea has been bugging me for a while. Next chapter: enter Psyche. I am planning on having Shizuo cheat on Izaya just cause I can. I don't know if this will end happily or not. So deal with me people. Review please. I want to know if I should continue or not. Bye and again, review!