Broken Beads

Written by- Cold Embers (frozenhotchocolate)

Summary- Kagome is pushed to the edge. All she wants is the happiness of the one she loves. What if the only way to possible make him happy was suicide? Does anyone believe that she deserves Hell for that? Or even death for that matter? No, and neither do the Heavens. It's not her choice anymore. The angels and demons may love her but she chose wrong last time. That's why they've decided to broaden her horisons for her.

The water fell down her body like a spiritual acid rain, washing away her sanity. She dropped to her knees in a large, muddy puddle completely soaking her already soaked clothing. But what she had already drowned in was the crimson liquid that made even grown men cry. It was her own. Her chest felt heavier that before and she had a difficulty breathing with all of the pain she was suffering from. She let a bloody daggar fall beside her from her own hand. Yes, she had committed the unforginable sin, but not out of selfishness but for the one she loved to be happy. All she was was a barracade to him, all she did was block his way to happiness.She refused to die infront of her friends, so she was going to die alone that way no more nightmares would they have to live. It would seem so selfish of her to gossipers, but she knew that Kikyou would do the best job anyway and she'd actually rather have them hate her than to miss her. No more feelings of loss. Each one of them had been through brutal and unfair tragedies. It was her turn. That's what she thought anyways. She too had been through trauma and depression, but wouldn't give herself that much credit. Maybe that modesty is what led to this. Dying in a bloody puddle without anyone knowing or caring. She then thought of her beloved hanyou. Would he ever find her body or would some random youkia come and devour her? Would the dense two-timer ever know why she did this? Would he cry? Will he even care that she's gone. Of course he'll care. He'll have lost his property and tool, but don't worry, there's a good part for him too. He can finally be with his first love without any "complications". Then a thought hit her as she coffed up a bit of blood and fell onto her back, letting red spill into the filthy puddle.

I'm just like her. I am choosing to die for HIM. I am putting everything after Him. And I am dying, hating and loving him. NO! I'M NOT HER COPY! –she screamed, but only infrustration and agony-then a little more blood came out of her bruised mouth.

Tears. It was the first time she had cried since she saw THEM together, saying how much they ment to each other. The sight and memory sickened her. God, it was taking her a long time to die.

"HURRY UP DAMNIT! JUST LET ME DIE ALREADY! Please just let me die." By then she had broken into sobbs.

The puddle started to pulse as more of her blood seeped in and it turned black. She fell into half-consciousness, her eyes hazed over slightly.

"finally," she whispered. Suddenly, a moonbeam shot down upon her. She felt the black water beneath her ripple in anger and black hands shot up from it, grasping her and pulling her into itself. She screamed and the moon grew larger, creating a larer and brighter moonbeam. Parts of the puddle seemed to dry and desentigrate. The raven haired girl sreamed again, but didn't have the energy to fight it off. This time the beam shot down at her, pulling the girl upward. The light and dark forces pulled with all their might, hurting the girl horribly.

"S-stop! I'm not either of you! I'm a miko who committed an unforgivable sin! I'm not fit for heaven or hell!" She screamed and the fight stopped abrutly.That's when everything went black and her turmiol ceased. She was thought she had died, but sinced she was a balanced good and evil she fell into a deep, peaceful sleep in the median zone of the spiritual world. Yes, she would be awakened, but not after some changes from both sides of her heart.

SOOOOOOO! Did yah like? Yes there will be more chapters but only if I get 5 reviews. 4 will do. NE ways I luv you! Sorry so short.

Raven- me too

Jynx- shut up ray. Just you shutup.

Miroku- huh?

Both- boobs.

Miroku- Oh ok, I understand now.

Well! JA NE!

Sincerely,

Cold Embers