Angry, I guess that's what I should feel right now, but I just…..don't….I feel more like a used rag slowly falling apart rather than one of the metal scrubbers that rust and untangle and end up cutting people's hands as they wash their plates and pots.
If Shiro saw me right now he would have a cow and maybe he'd lay an egg just because he was that freaked out. Thinking that made me smile for the first time in a long time, but I guess all of this is what being locked in a white room under government supervision for half of my eighteen years in life can do to a guy. I don't see how those guards, Renji, Rukia, and that crazy guy with the green and white pinstripe outfit can deal with this every day, but I guess it has to do with being able to talk to someone. I don't even remember the sound of my own voice, even if I wanted to it would do more harm than good seeing as how these guards would shoot first and ask questions later. That made me smile too, must be a good omen. They have been on high alert ever since my twin brother, Shiro, escaped 'on his own' which is impossible, I had to help him. That's why we were here, he's the fight, and I'm the flight. Don't take that as me saying I can't fight. I can hold my own in a brawl; I just prefer my thoughts, that's how he got out. I thought it trough explained it to him in simple terms and the next day he was gone without a scratch on him.
I was going to go with him, but other things came up. Some guys Aizen, Gin, and Tousen started setting up high intelligence hostage situations without them even being there and I had to go and walk the guys on the ground trough it step by step. It's laughable that grown men dragged an eleven year old to walk them trough bombs. Then again not all these guys are bright and none of them can compare to my mom and how brilliant she was. She was light hearted as well, but all of those are bitter sweet memories, Shiro and I didn't even get to go to her funeral, we were just dragged down here. I was trained to use an extra 15% of my brain and Shiro…well I don't know what they put him through, just that he looked a whole lot crazier and buff then when I had last seen him.
Some people believe that if you lock a child up and shelter them from the world, their innocence is preserved, but that can't be the case, when you are locked up you always worry about what happens next and how if there was a fire of earthquake you would be safe. Honestly I'm probably a whole lot purer than most of the people here and my brother, however I am no innocent, just a bit lost and lonely…Just one Ichigo Kurosaki.
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Hi~ I'm rosethorn200 pleasure to have you reading my story, each review gets you 200 more words in the next chapter and one more day off the seven day wait time. So if I get seven reviews today then the next chapter comes out tomorrow. Also, I'm not sure if I want this to be a romance or not, next chapter is where Shiro is and what's goin on with him and how well he's getting along with Aizen. So you also can say if you want Shiro with or against Aizen, I can cater to both please review so that I know what YOU want.
