Kayo knew that her past sins and all those horrible things she did would come to hunt her one day.
And it did.
She knew because she slowly felt herself going slightly insane each time she did something horrible.
She kind of felt better because she knew she wasn't the only slightly insane one in her circle of friends. In fact everyone was slightly insane in their own way. Miyako, Junko, Anne, Rachelle, especially Marry. They were all slightly, if not completely, insane.
Some nights she heard the voices.
They terrified her. They slowly made her go insane each passing day.
It's really messed up and all but she already established that she, Akabane Kayo, is slightly insane. And she thought that she would be stuck slightly insane for her whole life.
Technically she was for years and she was pretty sure that she was totally insane by the time she joined Class-3E. It's the reason why she hid her true self from Class E. It's the reason why she limited her abilities. It's the reason why she lied. She even lied to her beloved brother, Karma.
Deep down she was scared that they would stay away from her if they would ever know about the horrible things she had done in her miserable past.
'What would Class E think? What would Karma think? What would Isogai think? Will they hate me forever?' These are the questions she immediately thought about when her cover was blown.
Fortunately they didn't. Hate her that is. They took her past as something that will make her grow. All because of that stupid octopus teacher.
Karma was like 'so that's why you were even more bipolar than usual.' He was too chill about the situation that it made her want to punch him.
Kayo was scared how Isogai would think of her so she avoided him for the rest of the day.
He confronted her at the end of the day.
"What's wrong Kayo?" He tried to follow her.
"You must think I'm a horrible person now. Huh." She turned away from him disgusted of her own actions in the past.
"What are you even talking about?" He finally gripped her wrist.
"Don't act dumb." She said bitterly.
"I assure you, I'm not." He sighed.
"Liar!" She pushed away his hands. "You think I'm horrible, right? You think I'm a heartless murderer. You think I'm a deceiving liar. You must hate me now, right? I mean, who would love someone as insane as I am? You think everything we did together was a lie. Just a stupid act." She buried her head in her shaking hands.
"Was it really an act though?" Isogai tried to grip her hands.
"Of course not." She exclaimed and raised her head. "Everything I felt was real. Everything we did together wasn't an act. It was real. I swear. You have to believe me." Her voice turned into a whisper and she looked down at her shaking hands again.
Isogai smiled and held her hands. "Of course, I already know that." He paused as he tipped her head, making her look up at him, her golden eyes trying to hold back her tears. "I'll admit I was shocked but I never did I even thought that your feeling are a lie. I don't think your a deceiving liar or a heartless murderer. You have your reasons. You can tell me your reasons whenever you're ready, okay. And I most certainly don't hate you. In fact, it's the complete opposite. I would be that someone that will love somebody who is as insane as you." Once he finished talking she hugged him and cried.
Isogai didn't say anything. He just held her and let her cry.
'You idiot. If your like that you might be the one to turn insane. Or you could turn me sane again. Then again I might become even more insane...
because of you.'