Hello everyone! So this idea has been bouncing around in my head for awhile, and I finally decided to put fingers to keyboard and type it up. I haven't been writing for very long, and don't think I'm very good at it. I'm really nervous about writing this story because I really want to do it justice.

This is why you, the readers, will be deciding if I write it or not. Review saying whether you want me to continue, and any constructive criticism would be appreciated also. I'm here to try and improve, and wouldn't you rather be reading something good? I know you can't gleam much from this chapter, but if I continue the first couple will be just setting the story up.

Anyway, review with your thoughts.

Prologue

I loved him. As much as it was hard for me to show it, I really loved him. There were throngs of people ready to say that we were too young to know what love was, or that I was too cold hearted to ever understand those types of emotions, but really it was the who didn't understand.

They didn't understand why I was the way I was, or why I needed him so badly. It wasn't their fault, completely. I mean, they could help being completely annoying human beings, but then again, they didn't know the whole story. And they wouldn't. Ever. Not if I had my way at least. And neither would he. As much as I loved him, and trusted him, he couldn't know. That's why really. Because I loved him; and I knew he loved me back. But he wouldn't if he knew. He wouldn't be with me if he knew.

My father knew, and he hated to be around me. My mother knew, but she knew better than to bring it up. That therapist that I had refused to ever visit again a long time ago knew. Some random cops who would no longer recognize me, my grandparents, and my mother's best friend, all of whom probably pushed it to the back of their minds a long time ago.

And then there was the monster. He knew. Of course he knew; it was all his fault.

Walking into school this morning I made my way over to Jade's locker, two coffee's in my hands and a grin on my face. She was standing there with a frown on her face, staring intently at her nails as Tori continued on with whatever story she was telling.

Looking up her eyes caught mine and a flicker of a smile came across her face as she grabbed her bag and started towards me. She came up and grabbed at the coffee I offered her, gladly excepting the kiss I planted on her lips before we made our way back to the others.

"So then he took me out to see this super romantic movie", Tori gushed, looking towards Robbie and Cat for their reactions.

"Come out with me and I'll show you what it's like to date a real man."

"Really Rex?" Tori shot him a look, annoyance apparent on her face.

Suddenly the bell rang and we all made our way towards our next classes. I hurried to grab my things and follow Jade down the hallway, entwining our fingers when I finally reached her. We managed to sit through the next two classes and finally lunch came around. Everyone was practicing for some presentation they had that afternoon, so Jade and I got to spend some time alone. As much as I loved my friends, I liked these moments alone as well.

"So are you coming over tonight?"

"Sure, just let me check with my dad."

"You're with him this week?"

"Yeah, he's going on a business trip next weekend so I had to get my quality time over and done with."

"Shouldn't you be spending time with him then?"

"Court only requires us to sleep in the same house, nothing says we have to actually do stuff together."

Her father was never one of Jade's favourite topics of conversation, so finished lunch planning out our evening; typical fights about which movies to watch and whether or not any homework would be completed.

We finished lunch and made our way back to our friends, smiling and chatting, listening to André's chorus for a new song, and Rex's latest issue with his puppetmaster. Only three more hours and it would be just me and Jade, a few calm hours alone. Or about as calm as things got with my girlfriend around.

Last period of the day was Sikowitz's class, and thankfully the man was high off hallucinogenic coconut milk half of the time (as if that was all he was drinking). We played a couple rounds of alphabet improve and then spent the rest of class talking, occasionally mentioning something related to acting, but mostly just veering off onto which ever topic came up.

At the last bell we all fled the room, rushing to our lockers and attempting to exit as quickly as possible. Jade waited for me as I grabbed my stuff out of my locker and then we headed outside, walking hand-in-hand over to my truck.

Even though it wasn't the weekend yet we could still spend a couple hours together at night. Jade and I had managed to get most of our classes together, which meant that most of our homework was the same. She texted her father during the drive and since he was going to be at work all night anyway he didn't care. Not that he ever said no to her anyway.

I found that Jade's father preferred to just let her do what she wanted, as long as she stayed out of his way. Not that I minded having my gorgeous girlfriend come over to my house almost every day of the week. One of the many advantages to the RV was its privacy. And soundproofing.

We finally arrived at my house and pulled in, Jade grabbing the keys from the ignition before I could and heading over to let herself in. As soon as I walked in I saw her lying on the bed, eyes closed and bag lying forgotten on the floor.

"Don't you want to get our homework over and done with?"

"Fuck homework."

"Babe what's wrong?"

"Nothing."

I walked over to the bed and lay down next to her, turning my head to that my face was buried in her hair.

"You're not usually one to blow off school work."

"I'm just not in the mood."

"We can do it after supper if you want?"

Sighing, she sat up and reached over me to grab our bags. She searched through them both and handed me a math textbook, turning onto her stomach and staring at her questions.

"I offered to do it after dinner."

"I'd rather get it over and done with."

We lay there for over an hour, occasionally Jade would reach her feet over to lean on mine, or I'd look over at her chewing on her pencil. After what seemed an eternity we were both finished and I went inside my parent's house only to discover that they were out for the evening.

At least that meant that we could use the big screen.

Neither Jade nor I was much for cooking so I threw some pasta into boiling water while she chose a movie. Twenty minutes later and we were stretched out on the couch, when the opening sequence to E.T. came on.

"No, babe I don't want to watch this."

"Why not? You have nothing better."

"Yeah, but I really hate this film."

"Come on, it's not that bad."

"Critically no, I just have some bad experiences with it."

"Bad experiences with a film made for children?"

"Well, I was six the first time that I saw it. Aliens are terrifying to six year olds."

"No, only you."

"I just don't want to watch it, ok?"

"Ok, whatever."

She changed the film to some chick flick my mom had bought and we settled back down.

"Now you don't have any bad experiences with this one, do you Becky?"

"I was six!"

"Alright, fine, I can deal with the fact that my boyfriend's a total wimp."

I was about to say something more when she smiled and I knew that she was just kidding.

"Nobody knows about that."

"Well they won't hear it from me."

She lay back against my chest and I rested my chin on top of her head, smiling as she wrapped my arms around her waist. We spent the rest of the evening just laying there, talking for over an hour after the film had finished before I had to drive Jade home.

Watched her walk up the path to her dark and lonely house, wondering where her step mother was. She got to the door and turned back to wave. She slipped inside the house and I started the engine, ready to go home and fall into bed.

R&R please!

-J