Yeah…
I hate the world because of you
The blame is my mistake.
He sat there, in the cold dark basement. Just looking at it. He didn't know how long he had been there, nor did he care. He just sat there looking at the old tattered picture from long ago. Absent mindedly he traced the delicate features of her face, her sweet face that he loved so dearly, with a calloused finger.
Even though it had been over thirty years, he still reverted back to the days of his youth. Of his normal days where he could live with out the fears he had now. With out he constant plaguing of his tortured soul by hellish demons he had no control over. He hated his life now. Hated it. He didn't know why he even existed still.
Yeah…But he still remained.
Present company decline
An aura of truth.
He didn't want to blame his troubles on her. But at the same time, how could he not? After all, he is only human. He loved a woman who really didn't love him back, who inadvertently toyed with his psyche. He knew she didn't do it on purpose, but still. She shouldn't have said that she loved him and not ment it.
He was still here though. Surviving all because of her, but at the same time, dying because of her. He wanted death more than anything though. He wanted to simply give up and go, leave this world, rid himself of the virus that he thinks of himself.
Yeah…
But he can't. Giving up, failing, goes against his nature as a person. But one thing rang clear in his mind. It was her fault.
Please forgive me for my attitude
I'm choosing to stay on my side
Live with and addict you pick up a habit
Of letting them destroy your life.
He could finally admit it and he could finally survive. Though he didn't want to, he just couldn't blame the bulk of it on himself anymore. It was her fault. Her fault he loved her. Her fault he felt the need to protect her from Hojo and herself. Her fault the whole Meteor mess had stared in the first place. Now he could survive the torment from those demons. He would fight it out, survive. He knew he could now he could finally come to terms with the past.
Now, he had a whole new outlook on life. He didn't know how he came up with it, but, he did and it made him feel better. He did still love her though. He would always love her. He couldn't forget that love. No matter how fake it may had been, the emotions he felt were real and unforgettable.
I hate the world because of you…
He did, it was all too true.
Yeah…..
"But I'll always love you…"
Song lyrics:
Yeah
Kings X
Manic Moonlight
2001 Metal Blade Records
Final Fantasy and Vincent are from those wonderful people at squaresoft that made vincet oh, so real.
AN: I hope you like my fic. I'm Planning to write fics about the others in AVALANCHE to songs on the same album. Thanks for reading and I hope you review it too.