I have to tell you
(Matthew)
Seeing her after all these years, her charming smile, her ocean blue eyes that light up whenever she laughs. I've tried and have tried to hold back, to push these feelings aside; every time I see her these pleasant feelings just explode inside of me. I can't hold it in anymore, its always been her. I have to tell her, Im scared. I know it will change everything, but these feelings are too strong to hold in anymore if I hold them in any longer I think I might actually die.
Im going to say it, declare it loud. Im going to say it even if it annihilates me. I love her, there I said it. I would never let anyone or anything wound her. I would protect her give my life for her, she is my life when I look at her I'm home. I care about her feelings more than mine I've always pushed aside my feelings because I know she's content. I've never felt that way about anyone not even Lizzy she was undoubtedly just a petty distraction. Courteney naturally makes me feel safe she always has. Since the first moment I met her she's done nothing but make me feel loved. She makes at ease, worth something through all the years of pain. I will always do my best to never let her down I love her. I love her. I love her.
super short little one shot lmao As to how matty feels whenever he sees her.