Shawn was frisking happily when he ran into Gus. He quickly observed him and saw that Gus' boyfriend (he was walking gaily) had just broke up with him (Gus was crying silently and tearing pictures of him and his boyfriend into pieces.) Shawn decided that this was the right time for him…
"Hey Gus, - OH MY GOD – aaah – I see something! – It's so sad…" he said dramatically and he sobbed at the last words.
"Oh no! Gus, my dear! Your boyfriend just broke up with you! I'm so sorry!"
Gus first said casually "Wait, did he?" then suddenly he looked up into Shawn's eyes, and Gus' eyes grew bigger. Gus was in shock. Shawn walked to Gus and said "It's okay, I'll help you," when Gus started to scream. "OH MY GOD! GO AWAY DON'T COME NEAR TO ME!" and he started running. Shawn stared at Gus who was running away, and he felt weird. When Gus saying "YOU PSYCHO, LEAVE ME ALONE!" echoed in the street and Shawn heard it over and over again, he started to cry. Shawn didn't understand what he had done wrong!
Shawn spend hours crying in a corner he found in the street he started to cry, but when the night fell, his sadness turned into madness. Shawn's hands began to tremble and this very familiar but foreign urge came. Shawn didn't really know how to get rid of this urge so he started walking around in the street. Suddenly he saw a butcher walking out of his store, probably heading to his home. Shawn started to follow him.
Shawn followed the butcher from street to street, and the further they had gone, the more deserted the streets were. The butcher dropped something, and Shawn picked it up so he could give it back to the butcher. It was a huge and sharp knife, Shawn looked admiring at the knife, how it shined in the moonlight. He felt the sharp blade and knew it was very dangerous to let it lie about like that. What a irresponsible person this butcher was! Shawn was filled with a mad angriness, like he could kill something or so.
Shawn took a deep breath and walked to the butcher. "Excuse me, you dropped this, sir butcher." Shawn said. Shawn held up the knife to give it back while the butcher was turning around, but only before the butcher really had turned Shawn suddenly started to stab him with the knife, and he experienced a feeling of joy. When somehow the butcher - while being stabbed - managed to turn around, he looked at Shawn. Then the butcher started to scream. "OH MY GOD. YOU PSYCHO! I TOLD YOU TO LEAVE ME ALONE! HOW COULD YOU?" Shawn's eyes grew big this time, when he recognised the voice. Shawn picked his phone out of his pocket and let the light shine into the face of his victim.
He looked into the face of Gus.
Shawn suddenly felt this deep destroying feeling, he felt like his life didn't make any sense anymore. It felt so unfair, how could he have known that Gus was a butcher? How could he help it that Gus dropped his knife? Why had life to go this way? Shawn started to cry, but he tried to stop. He knew this wasn't the right thing to do, he shouldn't cry anymore, because crying people deserved pitiable, but he wasn't. He was a monster! Shawn suddenly felt the mad feeling again, and he knew he had to act quickly. He pulled the knife out of Gus' dead chest, and he stabbed it in his own. In his last seconds he prayed that he would be together with Gus again, in a new life in which he could be a better man.