A/N: Somewhat inspired by Solora Goldsun. Love the girl, but she has recently been infiltrating my brain a little too much for my liking… Ben's POV
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Losing a Brother
I knew Gwen was dying on the inside. I knew she was hurting and that she was miserable from losing Kevin.
And seeing her miserable made me miserable. She made me feel totally broken on the inside. The way her eyes glazed over whenever Kevin's name came up in a conversation. The tears that glittered in her eyes whenever she was thinking of their last kiss
Gwen didn't hold anything back from me. She just told me flat out how much she missed her boyfriend. She kept her gaze on me and her heart shielded, but she wasn't afraid to let out all the heartbreak that she was experiencing on the inside. That was what I liked about my cousin. She was always so strong-willed.
I found it even harder to have lost Kevin after our non-existent chat in the Perplexhahedron. I had told him that he was practically my best friend. And he and Gwen had a kiss moment. Losing him after all those precious moments we held with him after a year of keeping him around in Bellwood. It was hard.
"What about you?" she asked me one day as we sat in her room, finding it too hard to go anywhere near the garage or Kevin's car. It was hard to do anything that reminded us too strongly of him. Going to Mr. Smoothy was even painful; I couldn't help but remember all the times that we had spent there with our dark friend.
"What about me?" I questioned, almost countering her defensively. I sat in the chair next to her desk, the top of the back of it pressing into my chest. I wasn't in the mood to sit in the chair the right way.
Her emerald eyes were glittering with unshed tears. "Do you miss him?"
I closed my eyes, my face dropping to the floor. That had always been the question lately. I had been asking myself the same thing for days now.
I found it harder to have lost Kevin after our non-existent chat in the Perplexhahedron. I had told him that he was practically my best friend. And he and Gwen had a kiss moment. Losing him after all those precious moments we held with him after a year of keeping him around in Bellwood. It was hard.
Sure, Kevin was hard to deal with.
Sure, Kevin tormented me to no end.
Sure, Kevin was a pain in my neck at the worse moments.
But there was always a bright side to negatives.
Kevin showed me how life could always be worse.
Kevin showed me what being a hero is really about.
Kevin taught me about technology and Plumbers and more about loyalty than he even knew.
"It's like losing a brother," I told her, finally looking up to return her gaze. "You may love Kevin, but he's the closest friend I have."
Gwen stared at me, tears sliding down her cheeks. She blinked a few times before rubbing her eyes. "I'm so sorry, Ben," she whimpered. "You've been listening to me this whole time and I didn't even kno-"
"Don't worry about it," I told her, putting on a brave face like I had every other day since her beloved boyfriend had vanished into the Forge of Creation. "I'm fine."
She smiled weakly for the first time in days. It was slow and heartbroken, but it was a smile. I had her convinced that I was perfectly alright.
If only I could convince myself.
A/N: please review. Thank you for reading.
~Sky