Hey guy's. this is my first atempt at a Brucas story so be kind . for those who read Save Me, I'm totaly working on a new chapter but I've had writers block (pouts) it's driving me nuts. Please read and review (nice reviews) cos' I won't know weather to update otherwise lol. Love you loads peeps. Oh by the way it was Brooke that was shot in my story kay' not peyton, so when Luke went to check up on Peyton's skank ass it was to see how she was doing because she hadn't been to visit Brooke. Kay' Kay' ;) Love Izzie xx
"This time I wonder what it feels like To find the one in this life The one we all dream of But dreams just aren't enough So I´ll be waiting for the real thing. I'll know it by the feeling. The moment when we´re meeting Will play out like a scene straight off the silver screen So Ill be holdin' my breath Right up to the end Until that moment when I find the one that I'll spend forever with"
Brooke was never one for brooding, but for the past three weeks she found that was all she seemed to do. Brooke Davis was beautiful, selfless and strong. So why didn't she feel any of those things? Brooke lay on her bed listening to her stereo, she couldn't help but relate to the song. Tears fell from her hazel eye's once more, but she quickly wiped them away. She had lost the guy she loved again, her so called best friend had confessed her love for her boyfriend on the eve of the big Naley wedding knowing that Brooke would step aside for her even though it was the last thing she wanted to do. Because she was Brooke Davis, and she was selfless.
It was only a couple of day's later that she had learned the truth. After the fiasco at the reception that left Cooper and Rachel hospitalised, because of accident at the bridge she had walked in on Lucas and Peyton arguing. It turned out that Lucas and Peyton had done more than just kiss, a couple of day's after the shooting it turns out Lucas had gone to check up on Peyton and the two had ended up sleeping together. She's angry at herself for letting them do this to her again, but most of all she's angry at him for breaking her when he promised her it would be forever this time and she's angry at her best friend for being selfish because she's got the boy she's in love with and because they've abandoned her when she needs them the most.
"Cause nobody wants to be the last one there. 'Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares. Someone to love with my life in their hands. Theres gotta be somebody for me like that. Cause nobody wants to go it on their own And everyone wants to know they´re not alone. Somebody else that feels the same somewhere. Theres gotta be somebody for me out there."
The sound of music fills her ears, and she finds herself singing to it. Pushing away the scrapbook she's started making she slowly makes her way to the window. She takes a seat on the windowsillnear the pink cushions and traces the rain drops on the window whilst looking out. She figures she should at least be happy that she's back in her childhood home, because she's the girl behind the red door once more but she doesn't. Tree Hill isn't home anymore, and she starts to cry uncontrollably because she's just realised that. It isn't home without him, and she's alone in this without him. Her hand instinctively rests on her stomach that holds her unborn child, their child. And she finds peace of mind in that, because even though she can't have him it's ok because she'll always have a piece of him.
She told her parents the other night, and to her surprise they were supportive. She figures they want to make up for the time they missed with her. She's not angry anymore because she won't be totally alone in this. They'll be home in two weeks and they have left it to her to decide if she wants to stay in Tree Hill or build a new life in New York which is were they are situated at the moment. Whatever she decides they have promised to be there for her, and for the first time she believes them. She's thinking that Tree Hill isn't home anymore, so she's decided on moving out to New York with her parents to start a new life for her and her baby. She'll finish senior year at an all girls school, for the first time in her life she's thankful that she's one of the top ten people in her year that has exceptional good grades because it makes the transfer easier. She'll have her baby, and she'll study fashion/fashion merchandising/fashion photography and business at NYCU. She'll follow her dreams and make her parents proud, she'll follow her dreams and make a whole new life for herself and her child and she'll forget the heartache that lies in Tree Hill.
Moving away from the window, she walks over to her bed and starts working on her scrapbook again. She's filled it with pictures of her and Lucas while they were together, and some of Nathan and Haley, Karen and Keith, and some group photos of the gang. She sticks in the envelopes filled with letters for Lucas, Karen and Haley. She has a whole page dedicated to her unborn baby, she sticks in the first ultrasound picture and although she thinks it's slightly weird she sticks in the pregnancy test she took when she found out she was pregnant. Coasters from Karen's café because it was there she had decided to keep the baby. She's made two scrapbooks like this one will be filled and finished as she continues to add to it during her pregnancy but the other one will be half filled because that one is for Lucas. It's all she will leave him, when she leaves next week. She has given him a choice of being involved with the baby or not, that's what the letter is for. If he follows her to New York and fights for her, then she'll know. She'll know she's the one he wants, that they are what he wants. But if he lets her walk away then she'll know that she was right that he was and always would be in love with Peyton Sawyer. But there's a part of her that hopes he'll prove her wrong.