I could feel the tears stinging my eyes as Booth stared at me. My guess was that he was patiently wondering what I was going to reply to his statement.
My mouth opened, agaped. I had nothing to say except, "Why?"
His beautiful chocolate eyes forced away from my blue gaze down to his shoes. "Because...I love...her." He answered, not looking at me and smiled softly.
I mechanically shook my head from side to side, trying to shake what he told me away. "What does that even mean?" I asked, when a tear escaped down to my cheek.
"That I love her. I guess I always have." Then, he looked up at me. Straight in the eye. I could tell that he was a bit confused. "Why are you crying?" His smile vanished to a smug smirk. "Are those tears of joy for me, Bones?"
I scoffed. How could he have been so naiive?! Had these four years of knowing eachother really has been nothing for him? Did I not matter? Did he not notice how I felt about him? And if he did, did he lead me on?
My blood rushed to my ears. I could remember the events that happened before this. I remember about two weeks ago, an old girlfriend of his from college came for an old visit. Her name was Ruby Charm and they were together for 3 straight years. She was beautiful, I admit. To my surprise, she was also very bright.
Her eyes were gray, changing by any color of clothing she wore. Her hair was as black as her nail polish and her skin as white as cotton. She reminded me of the story of Snow White that my mother used to tell me about. I know that it is impossible for a person to be THAT pale, but Ruby Charm was enough to change my mind.
Her last name really did do justice for her. She was quite a charming woman. I saw how she and Booth acted towards eachother. Everytime I saw them together, it seemed like they were always whispering in hush tones. I payed no attention. I thought that Booth and I had a strong bond. That he and I would eventually be together and she's just an old friend or a distraction for people to not know about our feelings.
Then today, Booth came into my office, just when every worker had left and I was about to escape my work as well. He came, looking a bit more pale that usual, and told me, "We need to talk, Bones."
"Sure." I said casually as I picked up my coat.
"I'm leaving..." I looked at him, speachless, and he finished, "With Ruby."
"What?" I knew horror was written all over my face, but I didn't care. The problem with him leaving with Ruby was that she didn't live in the United States. She lived in Ireland.
"You're going with her back to Ireland? But what about Parker? What about your job? You home?..." What about me?
"No. I'm not going to Ireland, Bones." He said calmly while my eyes bruned. "I'm going far away from here. I'll send letters to Parker and paying a few visits, but that's it. I'm not coming back. I'm leaving with her tonight. We're going around the world...together."
I asked, "Why?" and he tells me that he loves her.
As I'm processing this, he's still wondering why I'm tearing up. I had no choice but to lie. I never admitted that I loved him and he might think that I have misunderstood of our relationship. "Yes, Booth...These are tears of joy." I said quitely. I'm an awful liar. He told me that before, but I never really realized it up until now. I couldn't even convince myself.
Booth frowned. "Hey." He tried to lift my chin up, but I stepped back. Something I never did. He looked a bit shocked at my action, but if he was going to leave me alone, I have better get used to his absense of simple touches.
"Bones." He looked at me. "What?"
"What..What?!" I bursted.
"Bones, I've already told you why I'm leaving..."
"Because you love her?...right." I looked away, the tears staining my face.
"Yeah." He stiffened. " I love..her." He said. I looked back up at him. I noticed that every time he said that he loved Ruby, he either paused or didn't look at me. It was as if though he was trying to convince himself.
"You lied. I was wrong." I looked at him in anger. "You ARE like everyone else in my life." I stormed off. He followed.
"Bones! Hey! What does that mean?!" He yelled. I stopped and twirled around.
"You said that you'd never leave me! You said that you'd always be here for me! You lied! I hope you're happy, Seeley!" I used his first name specifically just to show him how hurt I was.
"Temperance...I...I didn't lie--"
"The hell you didn't."
"I didn't!" He stepped closer to me. Our faces close to eachother, almost challenging one another.
"You are lying to me now as we speak." I said coldly. He didn't reply and that's when I knew, that that was the last time I would ever see him...for now.
