Im not really sure about this text. I don't know good lenguage so... Well... I don't promise anything and if someone could tell me if find mistakes and help me correct them that would be fantastic.
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You know him. Know him as much as you can, because he don't let anyone know him. This can't stop you from looking.
You can't be calm when he is near. Every insult can fulfill you with anger. Because he already created picture of you which isn't real. But he believe in it and you can't do anything to change it. This just make you so, so angry and you can't stop feeling so helpless and bitter. You already knew how hopeless this was when you realised that the one you want never will want you. And you can't change it.
You always knew he isn't pleasant person but you just can't stop want. Need. Even if only conversation you can have is when you insult each other you just Must talk to this person. Or shout. But you can't leave that person in peace. And that person can't leave you in his hate towards you.
You think about everything he is. And he is passion. He is strength. He is shield. But he is also hate. Hate for you. And this hurt so much.
You try, really, really try to think about someone else. Maybe about "Ms Weasley" how that person name her. But you know. You want only that person. Only him. But he don't want you.
So you just sometimes allow yourself to stare at him (when you think he doesn't look) and dream about how life would look like if he doesn't hate you. And when you wake up from yours thoughts you feel so, so hopeless. Because you only hear hate toward you.
Even now you can't stop yourself from these thoughts about him. And even if you already knew truth... And even if you are staying here and smile... You know. You know that she isn't that person you would love to see next to you. Because she hasn't got onyx eyes and black hair. Because she isn't tall and sarcastic. Because she isn't him. And maybe that is the reason why you are doing this.
But no matter how much you want to forget you always, always will want him. How ironic, right? Because the person you really want... Is the person who will never ever love you. Because person you want is him.
Just smile. Be happy you will have family. Bride and a lot of children. Kiss her and treasure her. And try to forget it isn't it. It isn't something you want. Because you would give all of this if you could be with that person.
But you can't.
And they think, these tears in your eyes, come from happiness.
And reason why you are doing all of this is because the one you want the most in the world just don't want you.