May 23, 2013
After fourteen years of marriage, we still get into fights. Usually over small things, like how I forgot to do the laundry, or how my office is too messy, or that I left my wand lying around where Hugo can find it. But this fight, this one is different. This fight was about our (or my) growing distance. According to Hermione, we have lost the closeness that we used to have. I still love her. Of course I love her. I will always love her. But lately, that feeling has come back. That feeling of worthlessness. That feeling that I don't deserve her. It could have to do with the fact that the anniversary is coming up, but Hermione seems to think otherwise. The ease that we used to have between us is slowly disappearing. I lay in our bed and we barely touch and its just… colder than it used to be. But here's the thing. I would do anything for her…
May 26, 2013
Today, I talked to Harry about this. After everything that we have been through together, I trust his advice the most. He said that loving her is enough. That we will get through this, just like all the other fights. I tried to tell him that this one is different, but he just reminded me of 6th year, which was one of the biggest fights that Hermione and I have ever had. But, still. It seems like its not enough. I guess we'll find out.
May 28, 2013
I think things are getting back to normal. I talked it over with Hermione and we agreed that we both have to work towards gaining what we had, and will have again. I'm confident in that .
June 30, 2013
You know something? I'm beginning to get that feeling back. The good one this time. I feel breathless when I look at her again. She's the only thing that makes sense to me all the time. And like I said, I feel breathless in with love. I'm no longer collapsing under the weight.