AN: I haven't written anything, (fanfiction or otherwise), in months and this little, depressing, plot bunny popped into my head when I heard the "You were here for me? You weren't here for me" line on a show. The rest just spiraled out. Probably going to be a pretty strong Kurt/Rachel friendship formation here but no romance that I can see going on.

To most people it probably seemed shocking that she tried to kill herself. They all probably thought that no matter how bad it got and even though she had practically no friends her drive to succeed would get her through anything. Even if she did try Rachel Berry was such a perfectionist that she'd succeed and not be found "just in the nick of time". Obviously, they were wrong and so now the task has been given to Kurt to find out what happened.

Kurt hates the hospital because it reminds him that some things can't be fixed with a makeover and gossip. This hospital is cold and grey and there are no Broadway musical numbers blaring from the rooms so Rachel must be going crazy, crazier, at least. He knew that the duty of coming to see her would be put to him; he wanted to come and talk to her, (for probably the first time ever). He wanted to hear that it wasn't his fault and the fact that he helped the others periodically shun her played no part in her action. In the back of his mind he knows that won't happen; if she even speaks to him, (she ignored Mr. Shue completely two days ago), she'll make him run back to everyone crying, (Finn's story was both terrifying and heartbreaking).

Rachel Berry is staring out of the window when he enters the room. She's not singing or talking incessantly or planning her world domination via Broadway. The twiddling of her thumbs brings him to stare at her wrists and the thick bandages that cover them for a moment before looking back at her face. She spares him a brief glance before going back to staring at the rain outside which proceeds to freak him out just a little bit more. Quiet Rachel is scarier than screaming Rachel.

Eventually she speaks, "I knew you would be the next one to come. You're too curious."

"Yeah well, after Finn came back crying I figured it was my turn to take a crack at it. Maybe even figure out why you did what you did."

"Finn thought he deserved answers from me. He doesn't deserve anything after the way he's treated me. None of you do."

(flashback)

"Just tell me Rach, why? I've been there for you all this time so why would you do this? Do you want a little more attention? What is going on? Don't you think I deserve to know?"

"You've been there for me? You haven't been there for me at all. You're just looking out for yourself this entire time. No one has been there for me. They make fun of me and use me to win competitions. Don't lie to me or try to convince me that you're the nice guy because I'm done with it. You deserve nothing from me. I want you to leave now."

"But Rachel…"

"I said to leave. I don't want to speak to you"

(end of flashback)

"I may be bitter but I'm also finally being realistic. I had only two people to support me and they couldn't even know about how bad it got because I didn't want to worry them. That's no way to live."

"So you just decided to stop living?"

"I guess. Are you happy now? You've got your answers so you can go back to them and tell them all about how Rachel Berry was just sad and lonely."

"But that isn't it. There's more. I mean, it's you so there has to be more. Like you said I'm curious; I want to know what pushes Rachel Berry to slash her delicate wrists up. I'm not saying I deserve to know because obviously I don't but I want to know."

"Okay, I'll talk to you. What do you want to know?"