Past Voices
By Sony Boy
Disclaimer: I own not the canon but I do own my fanfic. Unfortunately I still get zero money for this. So suing me is just a waste of your money, because I definitely cant afford it.
Summary: Watanuki Kimihiro always knew Clow Reed's name at the back of his mind; he just didn't know why.
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Clow…Clow…Clow…Clow Reed…Clow…Clow…Clow Reed…When will……
He couldn't remember a time that he didn't know Clow Reed's name. It was always at the back of his mind. He tried to get rid of it but when that didn't work he just pushed it into the back of his mind; never fully gone but out of touch or gone.
It hadn't been so terrible when he was a child and his parents were still alive. Back then his parents would simply smile amused when asked. "It is the voice of your Past and Future." Was all they would say. "It is your Hitsuzen."
Hitsuzen.
Yeah, he knew that word before Yuko, before he entered into the realm of Indentured Slave. It wasn't until he meet Yuko that he learned what Hitsuzen was though. He knew the word not the meaning.
Hitsuzen is the idea that an action is inevitable because without it, other related events in the future could not happen. Therefore all decisions and actions are related, and there can be no coincidence, only hitsuzen.
It was the words at the back of his head and the words of his parents that prevented him from accepting Domeki's presence. He understood that he needed the Archer-no matter how much he grumbled and whined-but he didn't want the Archer. He wanted his Hitsuzen. He wanted Clow. Yuko understood that but she still pushed him onto Domeki for 'protection'.
Clow Reed. In the past the words had no meaning to him. They were just random words that blare out around him when spirits surround him. Clow Reed...CLOW REED…CLOW REED…Yeah like he knew what a Clow Reed was. It wasn't until Yuko came that he learned that Clow Reed was a PERSON. A man Yuko knew; thought the exact nature of the relationship between them he was still unsure of. The second creator of the Makona. An extremely powerful Magician. A person who was good at EVERYTHING and NOTHING-at least in Yuko's oppinion.
A Magician who's name was heard in the depths of his mind at night when there was no one around. A name that had comforted him as a child. A name that even now he stopped to listen for. A name of the person who was…
"Watanukiiiiiiiiiiiii!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I want SAKE!!!!!Sake!!!Sake!!!!!!!!!"
Oh well. Time to return to being the indentured slave. Never noticing that his mantra had changed.
Clow…Clow…Clow Reed…Clow…Clow Reed…When will you come for me?
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Sorry it's so short and it may not make a lot of sense but hey, I tried.
Okay, first xxxHoLiC fanfic and work. Plus, this will be my first multichapter fic so HELP!!!!
Okay, I love xxxHoLiC very much…even though I haven't read Vol.9&10 (I have them ordered though, I just have to get them….) and as great a fan I am of Donut I've seen very little of other pairings and while it's true that even in canon Donut just makes sense, I cant help but feel the need to write a fic that doesn't have Donut but is still Slash.
I'm going to write a few more entries and try to see if I have what it takes to write multichapters. If not this will just be a One-Shot.