Staring in at the mirror
I watch my reflection there is one question on my mind?
is this really me
its not like I know who I am
it just seems like nothing is real.

Am I truly happy with the way my life has turned out
to stand on the side lines and smile
I am so used to fighting kicking ass
I don't think I can live a normal life
its not like I don't want a normal life
don't get me worry

I can't cheer on the home side
imagine myself settling down
getting married
having kids
as much I want those things
I am not ready to settle down just right now

I try to imagine what a normal life would be like
but then that would mean a mother
which first of all I haven't had since I was six
and a loving father
recently he's started to be around when I need him
but it still doesn't make up for everything he missed earlier in my life.

Listening carefully I can hear the front door open and close
time to live another lie
I wish my life hadn't turned out this way
but these are the cards I've been dealt
now I have to play them.

Great just what I need
will I ever have a normal life
did I ever have a normal life
I'll get back to you on that one.