-1Chapter 1

"Waaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh" Emma heard the baby cry over the baby monitor. She yawned and rolled over in her bed to look at the alarm clock. It read 5:00am. She could see the sun starting to come through her basement window. She was not excited to be getting up this early but understood she had to because this was part of mother hood.

She rose out of bed quickly and walked upstairs to the bedroom that her baby shared with her brother Jack. She walked in and peered in to her daughter's crib. Four month old Hope just lay there staring back at Emma. Hope had stopped crying and had a smile on her face. Emma smiled back and picked her up and took her downstairs to the living room where she could give her a bottle.

Emma prepared the bottle and sat down in the rocking chair and started rocking Hope while she drank. Hope was quiet and just drank the milk. Emma began to rock. This was the same rocking chair that Emma's mom had rocked her in when she was a baby.

She looked down at Hope who was quickly devouring the contents of the bottle. "How did I end up here?" she asked herself quietly.

Flashback

Emma threw the rest of her clothes in her duffle bag and headed towards the door of Sean's parents trailer in Wasaga.

"Emma, wait!" Sean yelled after her. Emma was already through the front door headed down the steps towards her car. She opened the trunk and threw the duffle bag in and headed towards the drivers side door.

"Wait? Wait for what Sean? For you to break my heart again? You made yourself perfectly clear a few minutes ago. Your not coming back to Toronto no matter what. I can't believe I even came here this weekend. I let myself fall for you and then you throw me away like a piece of trash." Emma yelled at him. Tears started running down her face and she was breathing heavily.

"No, no, no Emma. You don't understand. I love you Emma. But I can't come back to Toronto until I'm ready. Until I'm fully healed. If not, I'll just get in to trouble again. When I come back I want to be ready. You have to trust me on this." Sean headed towards her and reached out to touch her arm and try to comfort her. To show her how much he loved her but she wasn't interested in hearing him out.

"I can't trust you Sean. Not anymore." She pulled away from him and got in and started the car. She pulled out of the driveway without even looking back at him. His mouth hung open. He couldn't believe what had just happened. He just lost Emma, possibly forever.

Emma shook her head and tried to forget about that weekend - the weekend that Hope was conceived. One day if Hope ever asked if she was conceived from love Emma knew she could honestly answer yes to that question. Her and Sean had always loved each other and that weekend had been full of love except for the last 10 minutes of it. But, Emma wondered, if Hope ever asked why her dad wasn't around how was she ever going to tell her daughter that he didn't even know she existed?