A/U : Anyone have any tips for being able to write over 40 stories without being stressed out?Oh and,this fiction isn't meant to make you is my other FanFiction still in ,you might want to read my quick side-story,"Memories",otherwise you won't understand a certain part of this story.
Oh,and currently,I am gonna try and focus on this being my main I don't know how to continue it,I will update you guys on that so maybe you guys can give me some ideas so I can focus on other Fanfics until then.
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Third Person P.O.V
In the now silent house,all you could hear was a loud thud,sobs accompanying them while silent drips of tears dropped to the knew that such a warrior,such a powerful man who had endured much pain in battle and never shed a single tear could start crying over a simple...relationship,if you can call it that.
Goku,on the floor of the kitchen,had just read a note left by his beloved wife that he truly did love and protect and encourage,but never loved,protect,or encourage him had known from the start that loving someone depended on who they are and if they accept you,not if you or they could reach one another's that's what his wife had love depended on her expectations of himself,Gohan,and Goten.
The note on the counter had read,"Goku,I doubt this would hurt you much,considering the fact that I probably wasn't the best wife for you, and that you probably never loved me which is why you always left me now,I had cried far too much myself to go back to you...I am truly sorry,but you must see that I only ever loved the handsome image of you that I had in my mind as a foolish,juvenile have to come to accept the fact that...me,Gohan and even Goten don't even love second you first died...it faded away.I cannot stay with you any longer,for I have met someone that truly understand my loneliness and really loves probably can tell who he is by now...But I really hope you a better life then before Goku because I don't love you don't love you Chi Chi."
Goku,in emotional trauma,tried his best to calm himself down,failing miserably,and ended up burning his surroundings with his angered aura and ki.
Opening his eyes,vision still blurred,he stood up,grasping the counter to support himself,yet he had been in such a fury he hadn't noticed he had melted the counter edge,his aura reflecting jet black.
Staggering to his bedroom,he growled and twitched,continuously inquiring no one in particular,"Why...?"
Upon reaching his room,he had already been twitching almost to open the door in his condition,he failed,and in frustration,he blasted the door instead.
Eyes puffy and red,he plopped onto his bed face first,bawling his eyes knew this would happen someday,but he never thought it would happen on his own,true birthday,which he had kept secret for many years.
Hugging the pillow on his head,he closed his eyes quickly,the tears still running freely down his most powerful and most cheerful warrior in the universe had cried himself to sleep,longing for his now gone wife who left him for his best friend,his rival.
In his sleeping state,his power had been increasing with anger,his aura twisting and corrupting in ways you couldn't even think now,it was obvious that Goku was going to take his wife's leave really to Goku before he fell asleep,Gohan,Piccolo,Goten and Trunks were floating by his window,watching.
Goten looking to the others then whispered,"Gee...I think mom was a bit too cruel when she said she would tell dad about her decision...I'm actually feeling bad for him now..."
Gohan,sighing,stated,"Well too bad Goten.I don't care how you or he feels,he is out of our lives now so let's get a move on."
At that statement from Gohan,Piccolo and Trunks and Goten started to deeply growl,angered by his choice of ,having thought of Piccolo as his role model his whole life,immediately took it back when Piccolo started to bare his canines at him.
"We're staying here and we are going to see how things turn ,we didn't just come here because we know Goku found the note,we came here because of what we sensed within him," Trunks whispered in a dangerous tone.
At that,Piccolo heard a clicking sound from Goku's just any clicking sound,it was the sound of someone opening a door.
At his sudden alert state,the three Demi-Saiyans shut up and tuned their senses to understand what was happening in Goku's then,someone had closed Goku's bedroom door...and it absolutely wasn't Goku...
Trying to sense any Ki's that could've gone into there,they were only able to sense Goku,who still lay in bed,tears running down the side of his face.
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?'s P.O.V
Walking up to the bed as quietly as possible as to not wake up Kakarotto,I worry about his mental seeing his life long adventures,I know that a bad event will occur by nightfall.
Slowly sitting down on the soft material,I lay my back against the headboard and pick up Kakarot,sitting him on my lap and letting his sleeping body rest is head against my chest.
He stirs in his sleep and subconsciously attempts to get closer to me for warmth,considering it is quite cold at this moment of night.
Allowing him to,I then embrace his muscular,perfect my left hand onto his head,I pat and play with his soft,ebony hair.
It's been many years since I was able to do this and I had been longing to do it once again to my beloved Kakarotto after I had released him to make him happy...Yes,it has been so,so,so many years since then...and I still miss his joyous smiles at me,yet I know I had to let him go in order to stop his suffering.
He once again moves,this time opening his pain-filled,yet beautifully ebony eyes to meet my cold,dreaded black ones.
He whispers questioningly as if in a dream,"...R-Retzu...?"
And all I could do was nod,answering him,"Yes,Kakarotto...Remember me...?"
His eyes widen before he quickly closes them,bursting into another fit of tears and hugs me tightly,and sobs into my chest sadly,"Retzu!Please!Please take me back...!" I was surprised at this.
I was even more shocked when he continued,"Please...!Put an end to me...I hate how reality always has to depend on me giving out either good or bad karma...!It is so tiring and unwilling with me...!My former-mate...If I stay alive,bad luck will befall her!She will die if I stay alive,Retzu!...Please...just please kill me,Retzu...I Don't want to continue...I don't want to die unless it is in your warm,caring arms...Daddy..."
My eyes widened,noting that...he actually remembered what I had asked of him many years ago...but mostly,I was shocked by Kakarot's requests of death by the person he knows that loves him the most.
Gripping Kakarot's shoulders tightly,I pull him towards reply to his requests was,"No..."
Kakarot began to sob and hiccup,saying in between the hiccups,"Then...what should...I do...Daddy...?"
Making clicking sounds with my tongue to calm him down,I go into deep thought with the question,only one answer reaching dragon balls.
Sub-consciously,I had whispered it out,Kakarot hearing the then looked up and at me in the eyes bore into my soul painfully,knowing that if I were to break his trust,he wouldn't even know his reason of existence,neglected and not being able to trust a single soul.
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Outside,the four warriors had heard the whole had also been on the verge of tears,Trunks attempting to quiet and calm him down.
Breaking the silence,Piccolo used telekinesis to communicate with the others.
/Gohan this has gone too far.I think it is time we tell your mother and Vegeta,plus get some information on this "karma" that Goku ,in Goku's terms,we are to be cursed for all eternity/
/As I said,see if I is that bastard with dad anyways!?He looks like some kinda bisexual gangster Saiyan who seems to have a relationship with dad!Better yet,WHY IS DAD CALLING HIM DADDY?!/
/Because I requested him that he call me that instead of my title,many years ,I will only allow you to stay at the moment so you can see the pain you have caused to my try wishing yourself good luck,The Child Of Chains will definitely cause you great pain./ a voice interrupted the was the man who was with Goku.
Throughout the telepathic link,Piccolo apologized,/I-I'm very sorry my lord.I will see to it that my apprentice is disciplined the moment,Gohan mind your ,Trunks, will catch up later./
At this,the duo left,and Gohan glared and screamed angrily through the link,/WHY SHOULD I?!/
Piccolo simply replied in a dangerously low tone,/Fool,watch your God is the most powerful of all and can send you to infinite torture in Hell without hesitation or regret./
Gohan visibly tensed at this,whispering only not through the link,"Gomen-sai!"
/Shhh...Kakarotto cried himself to sleep again...Don't wake him up.../
At this,Gohan eased,visibly telling Piccolo that Gohan had been relieved that Goku was able to rest.
Until Goku's ear-piercing scream tore through the silence and inside the room,it could be heard that Retzu was struggling to calm down Goku from whatever had woken him up.
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Goku's P.O.V
After he had whispered his idea,I felt as if a weight had finally been lifted off of my asleep on his warm chest,his heart beating in a comfortable rhythm,I fell into my dream world.
However,it had turned into a nightmare.
/)Nightmare(\
It was quite a beautiful around me and Retzu were a flower field,surrounding us with some of the most rarest and most gorgeous flowers on Earth.
Then all of a sudden,an explosion erupted at the far edge,setting the flowers on flames spread throughout the edge,surrounding ,it started to close in.
I attempted to hug Retzu tightly for comfort,finding that he wasn't ,looking at my wrists,I found some awfully familiar chains...Chains that were to bound me for all eternity...
I then heard a nefarious laugh coming from above my head up,I found Retzu floating there,a sick and cold smirk on his eyes as dead as a rotten carcass.
The flames enclosed on me,but stopped about three yards away from me,casting an eerie glow in the area I was trapped in,illuminating the flowers and making them look like little shadows ready to bury me within them.
Unfortunately for me,I wasn't able to use my ki.
Absorbing all this information,I felt a breath behind me.I turn around as quick as possible to face Retzu only to end up being knocked out.
When I awoken,I had felt a horrible,body-tearing pain at my entrance.I open my eyes to meet Retzu's lost in lust,leaving me to realize that he had just violated me in my unconscious state.
All I could do was scream.
/)End Nightmare(\
I screamed and screamed,feeling arms struggling to calm my spastic I hear a familiar voice tell me,"Calm down Kakarotto...! Everything's fine...You're safe from your nightmares..."
Recalling my dream,I shake my head a reassure myself that Retzu wouldn't do such a thing to .Especially put me back on my chains.
Opening my tightly shut eyes,I saw Retzu,who had pulled me into another embrace and was whispering to me over and over,"It's all right Kakarotto..."
Soon enough,I am not tense anymore and I let him straddle me as I end up staring into vision then cleared and I noticed four other figures beside the were Gohan,Piccolo,Goten,and Trunks...
Scooting more into Retzu's protection,cowering away from the four and baring my teeth at them,a growl rising from my throat.
It was then that I heard Retzu say,"Kakarotto,no won't hurt us or take you away from know perfectly that no one can ever take you away from me." And I stop.
I go back to my regular position I was in when Retzu had been straddling me,bowing my head in shame as to think of the four as my puts his head into my hair,and cuddles me,leaving me to fall asleep again.
Except this time,I know it had been Retzu who had made me fall asleep,his sleep magic working on me as I fall into a dreamless,peaceful state.
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Third Person P.O.V
The five awake warriors heaved a heavy that had happened was a simple,little thing,and in seconds had turned into a the first sight of people close to him,Goku had already thought of them as enemies!That's how big of a problem this was.
However,resolving the situation would be 99.99% impossible,and they all knew that.
Tilting his head to the four by the bedside,Retzu suggested,"I think it's best if we leave will not be in any danger.I adjusted my sleep magic for him so he doesn't have any nightmares and when we leave,I will put a barrier up in this territory."
In protest,Gohan and Goten were about to yell their disagreements and how they don't trust Retzu,but shut up after remembering who they were talking to and why Goku was comfortable around him.
What the five weren't sure of though,was what would happen after they knows what the future only fate can tell...
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/)Two Months Later(\ Goku's P.O.V
It's been a couple of months since the HELLCAT had left me,and I still am taking my situation unbearably hard.
Dragging the nearly dead corpse of a child over to my backyard,I use my now darkly lit ki to start up a boy was unconscious at the moment,and I didn't really care about his bratty-ass less living things there are,the more air I can keep to myself.
Placing the body on the floor,I create Ki chains,attaching them to his wrists and ankles.
The unbearable silence surrounded me,so I started singing a little song I once heard before.I forgot the band name but I do remember the song was called "Gone Forever".
I began,as I slowly began pulling the boy's left arm in the opposite direction.
"Don't know what's going on
Don't know what went wrong
Feels like a hundred years I
Still can't believe you're gone.
So I'll stay up all night
With these bloodshot eyes
As these walls surround me with a story of our life..."
At this point,the boy had awoken and felt the immense pain of his dislocating arm which was now being torn off in pain,I take the sounds all in,enjoying it as my own music to my ears.I moved on to his other arm as I finish his left and throw it to the side to put in the fire later.
"I feel so
Much better
Now that you're gone forever
I tell myself
That I don't miss you at all
Not lying
Denying that I feel so much better now~
That you're gone forever..."
By now,blood was covering my arms and hands,a wicked and bloodthirsty smile on my his other arm is forcefully pulled out,his blood sprays everywhere,soaking my torn,now red and black colored gi due to it not being cared for,and my face the blood neared the edge of my mouth I lick it,savoring the taste of the fresh,copper like onto the legs of the now very near-dead body,I decide to take it slowly to clear my frustration and torture him.
"Now things are coming clear
And I don't need you here
And in this world around me
I'm glad you disappeared
So I'll stay out all night
Get drunk and fuckin' fight
Until the morning comes I'll
Forget about our life..."
His joints were now separating in a painful way,I could hear it nice and pain for him had been horrible,his eyes rolled to the back of his head,blood began running down his face from his eyes,his body moving spastically.I had rearranged the chains to stay around his neck,adding ki blades to them so that when needed,I can simply chop of the idiotic little head of then,when I began thinking about Chi Chi again,I pulled the leg off as if it were screams of children piercing through the woods were always better than the adults'.
"I feel so much better
Now that you're gone forever
I tell myself that I don't miss you at all
I'm not lying, denying that I feel so much better now
That you're gone forever
First time you screamed at me
I should have made you leave
I should have known it could be so much better
I hope you're missing me
I hope I've made you see
That I'm gone forever"
Having sung two verses of the song instead of one,his right leg was with the pile,his eyes were stressfully red,mouth open for mid scream,but had stopped,his chest wasn't rising or falling boy was dead,and I my hand was his small heart,then tossed to the pile too.
Now that I had separated him,I began to drag the body to the usual place that I had dumped over three hundred bodies in,the over three hundred bodies of innocent people I had the way,I was halfway done with the song.
"And now it's coming clear
That I don't need you here
And in this world around me
I'm glad you disappeared"
Getting back to my backyard,I began putting the limbs on sticks that would hang over the I put the limbs over it,waiting patiently for my dinner to be the while,I finished the song.
"I feel so much better
Now that you're gone forever
I tell myself that I don't miss you at all
I'm not lying, denying that I feel so much better now
That you're gone forever
And now you're gone forever
And now you're gone forever"
The limbs had finished and I took them from the fire,and began eating in silence...all alone as usual...
It took several seconds only my appetite,I didn't hesitate to eat the torn off limbs of this ,I did begin to regret once again.
Throwing the sticks away,I began to chuckle,which I then started to over,tears suddenly started running down my tears of joy of sadness and disappointment.
I said to myself painfully,"Once again...another innocent person gone by my hands,just to keep myself alive...And yet the child had done nothing to me and he still pleaded to help me after I had flicked him across the road,tearing his flesh...?"
I could barely believe the pain I had caused all my what I could believe was that it wasn't as horrible as my emotional that never disappears.A pain that is to stay forever and make me feel as if there was a giant hole in my chest.
I thought to myself then,'What a phycopath you are Kakarot...'
Although no one taught me,I had already known what my name was linked to in the Saiyan had something to do was rotting carcasses,therefore explaining the "rot" and "kaka" part in my thorough translations,it meant rotting shit,in which the shit is suppose to resemble useless,and disgusting bodies that should be destroyed.
I guess that also uncovers the reason on why Vegeta had always treated me like a useless and disgusting carcass to be ,really ironic.I once again smile a wicked smile...Piccolo had been here to see and hear it all...
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Third Person P.O.V
A voice ringed through Piccolo's 's voice.
you enjoy the scene my old friend...?/
Walking out of the shadows,Piccolo had a look of disgust on his face,and replied cruelly,"Like Hell I did!Goku why have you done this!?Have you even smelled yourself or this place!?I can barely last a millisecond here without the scent of corruption consuming my sense!"
"Then how are you still here?" Goku tilted his head at Piccolo,smiling in a way that made shivers run down his spine.
"Barrier."
" me wonder how you're so full and affected by bullshit."
Goku then started chuckling.
Growling,Piccolo responded,"Goku,why have you stooped this low as to kill innocent children for one fucking reason?"
"Don't you see Piccolo?It's because I can." Goku chuckled humorously.
"Shut up with the burns,Goku."
"Na,ah,ah,ah, name's Kakarot,dumbass."
"I'm calling you Goku!But back to the point,Goku you've taken your emotional trouble way too far!You've killed many people,this place,and most especially you is corrupt,and you never come to us for help at least!"
"It's none of business,now 't you see that I am happy being alone,Piccolo?"
Piccolo growled a dangerously low growl before saying,"Fine,but deep inside I know you don't want to be along and once I leave,you'll regret every word you told me".Within seconds,he was in the sky,headed back to wherever he came from.
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Goku's P.O.V
I heave a soft sigh.
"He...was right...I'm...alone again..."
Tears fill my eyes to the brim."Why...why do I have to be so lonely...?"
Running up to my room with inhumane speed,I collapse onto the bed and cry myself to sleep...just like the day she left me...
/)Dream State(\
In my dream,the first dream I had since she left me,I was surrounded by dim too bright or I knew only one person who would stay in a room with this brightness of aunt Hanasia.
Turning around,knowing what was already there,Hanasia was sitting on one of those chairs that pianists use,all the while she was leaning on a piano behind her left was another chair and in front of her was a table with two cups of coffee.
She motioned for me to sit down by titling her head for a had never really spoken much since she never really liked to unless there was a topic she was interested in or a debate she was either involved in or could win.
Sitting down on the chair,I noted that it was comfortably soft and took our cups to our hands and began to drink some of the Ninjen coffee.
"I see you're having troubles again,Kakarotto."
"I'm sure you know everything already, always do."
She smirked a prideful smirk,knowing that I was right about her.I had spent so much time playing with her when Retzu was busy I could read her like a book and remember every word of the infinite pages.
"Would you like to hear a song an Earthling made?"
I ,too,could read me like a my mood and situation,she always knew what song to matter how hard I try to hide my personal problems,she always seems to see right through me.
"It's called 'Balloons' by some youtuber named 's based off'a game they call Five Nights At Freddy's 3."
definitely knew because of this,I trust her to think that I will like this song.
I stare up at the ceiling as she begins to play,crossing my legs and relaxing.
The tune in the beginning starts off as a sad tune,as if some tragedy had just occurred.I know then that I shouldn't interrupt came the vocals,her usually beautiful voice syncing with the music.
"So many years.
So many dark memories.
So many fears.
We've now put to ease.
Pain makes you do things
You never knew you could do.
Is this all real?
Or just déjà-vu...?
But now the party's over.
Now the guests are gone.
It's already past our bedtime.
It's already almost dawn.
Just like balloons,
We soar on our own!
Finally free
From the pain of our home!
And just like balloons,
That no one will hold.
Free from the truth,
That no one will know.
Just little children,
Not at all strange.
Until the lights went out,
And everything changed.
Alone and afraid,
For oh so long.
Wondering what did we do wrong?
'Cause now the party's over.
And everyone is red.
I feel sick to my stomach.
Or am I sick in the head?
Just like balloons,
We soar on our own!
Finally free
From the pain of our home!
And just like balloons,
That no one will hold.
Free from the truth,
That no one will know.
All of the pain,
Far in the past.
Yet echoes of screams,
Forever will last.
Just like balloons,
We soar on our own!
Finally free
From the pain of our home!
And just like balloons,
That no one will hold.
Free from the truth,
That no one knows.
No one knows…"
By the last sentence,my mind had fallen into a deep void,the last thing I saw was Hanasia smiling and waving goodbye at knowing how she was,when I was to wake up,someone would be there waiting for me.
/)End Dream State(\
My mind awakens after the dream,the faint taste of coffee in my mouth.
I feel so two Ki's around of the Ki's were hugging me or latched onto other sprawled out to my left.I opened my eyes slowly,still wanting to stay asleep,and look to my eyes then widen.
A male with a long mane had his left arm around my head,his right arm on my waist...Raditz.
Immediately looking to my left,suspicious,I saw someone identical to me,except with darker skin and his hairdo had two devil horns instead of one like me...Turles.
Suddenly,I felt Raditz stirring awake beside me."Ohayo,Kakarot..." he pointed to a chair that was at the corner of the room,on it was a new pair of training gi.
"Get dressed and shower, is ready in the kitchen.I'll meet you waking up and Turles will take a long time to awaken."
I smile in joy at my new found company and obey to the restroom to shower and dress in my new gi,tears of happiness flow down my face...
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