So, this is the sequel to Lasting Pain, Sleepless Nights and if you haven't read it I highly suggest you do so you understand this story. Unfortunately, I am starting school tomorrow so I will not be able to update as frequently as I did before. I am hoping to get the next chapter up by next week. Please R&R!

Kendall P.o.v.

The day they held James' funeral it was like the heavens wept with everyone else. It rained continuously all day. Not one person there had a dry eye. All of his friends and family were there, save for his parents who when they got the news packed up everything and left the next day. They never found a body but there was no doubt he was dead. No person could live from falling from that height. I sighed, and a tear dripped from my cheek when I got the signal it was time for me to say the eulogy. I stood up and slowly walked to the podium. I choked back a sob as a few more tears fell from my eyes.

"James. James David Maslow. I have known him since fourth grade, and I can honestly say he was one of the most amazing people I have ever met. Though you may have not known this, he was so selfless it was almost annoying. He was also one of the kindest people I ever knew. He wore his heart on his sleeve and I think that's what killed him. He acts confident, but he relies on others more than you could believe. And one of the things about him that drove me crazy was he cared about his friends more than himself," I stopped momentarily to wipe away the tears that started to fall. "He hid more pain than I thought possible, yet still was able to act like nothing was wrong. I envy him in a way. He doesn't have to live in this cruel world anymore, but this is not the way he should have left. I'll miss you buddy," I finished hurrying back to my seat.

I buried my face in my hands and continued to sob quietly. I felt a warm hand on my shoulder, and when I turned I found it belonged to Logan. I looked at him and noticed how his eyes were red rimmed and that he had deep purple bags under them, as if he hadn't slept in a week. I suddenly realized something, I knew the last few days, had been horrible for me, but I forgot about how it must have felt for everyone else. As I looked over to Carlos he looked back at me. His bright brown eyes were dulled with pain and he had tear streaks down his cheeks. He just looked so unCarlosish. He hadn't even worn his helmet since the day we lost our best friend. My heart broke at the sight. But when I glanced over at Lexi my heart shattered. Her head was in her hands and she was sobbing so hard she was shaking. She looked so frail and helpless. She was in love with James, and James was in love with her. I don't know what could have possibly possessed him to leave her. To leave us. We loved him. He was our brother. I walked over to her and embraced her. I knew I could never fill James' place but for her sake I had to try. A few tears leaked down my cheeks as I thought how he would never see her again. Never kiss her. Never hold her as I am now. Oh, James. Why?

James P.o.v.

I was surrounded by darkness, but I heard voices. A man and a woman. I didn't recognize them and I didn't understand them. I tried to open my eyes, but my eyelids felt like they weighed a ton each. I struggled but was able to pry my eyes open. The bright white lights burned as they hit my eyes. I shut my eyes again to escape the light. I slowly opened my eyes once more, though this time blinking repetitively until my eyes adjusted. As my vision cleared I saw the man and woman move to my bed side.

"How are you feeling?" the woman asked me, concern evident in her eyes.

"Fine." I said quietly. My voice came out scratchy and rough and my throat felt like sandpaper.

"Here, drink this," the woman said holding out a cup of water.

I sat up slowly, but gritted my teeth when the pain ripped through my stomach. She noticed and placed her hand on my shoulder. I took the cup of water and drank it thirstily. I drained the cup in a few seconds. I set the cup on the table beside me and wiped my mouth with the back of my hand. I looked around and realized I was in a hospital.

"Why am I here?" I asked them.

"Don't you remember? We found you lying on the shore. You were in very bad shape; in fact when we found you we actually thought you were dead. Luckily we got to you in time. We called an ambulance and you were brought here. You had a deep cut across your stomach and some bad head trauma. You are very lucky," she finished with a smile.

"Um, where is here? And who are you?" I asked glancing between the two.

"Oh you are in St. John's hospital and my name is Keely and this is my husband John," she finished with a smile.

"Nice to meet you, I'm James Diamond," I replied.

"So, you don't remember how you got here?" John asked.

"No," I shook my head,"No I –."

It suddenly all came back to me. The cliff, the falling, the water, the pain. And Lexi. I made the worst mistake of my life.

"I need to get back home," I said quickly.

"Well, you can't leave right now, but when you are healed enough to travel we will gladly take you home," John said.

I sighed and nodded my head.

I laid back on the pillow and held back tears as I thought about Lexi. I loved her, but after this she would never love me. I made the biggest mistake of my life.