A/N: Hey, everyone! This is just something I wrote one day, and I decided to put it up here, so I hope you like it! As the summary says, it's Riku's thoughts on his feelings for Sora. Sorry if it makes Riku seem a little OOC, but no one really knows what goes in inside his head, right? Once again, I hope you like it!
Disclaimer: I do not, and will not, ever own Kingdom Hearts.
Sora.
Can you hear me? Do you know what I'm thinking? I'm thinking of you.
Am I in your thoughts as much as you are in mine? Do you notice when I am not there, standing beside you? Do you even care? I notice. I care. About you, about us, about everything. And I think about you every day; when I am with you and when I am without.
What am I to you? Are we best friends? Or enemies? Would you ever wake up and realize that maybe, just maybe, I mean something more? Nothing means more to me than you.
Are you reminded of me? Everything reminds me of you. It used to be little things, like a distant cloud, or a sunset on the horizon, but now it has grown to something greater, and everywhere I go, I see you. You're all around me, always, and when I close my eyes, you're still there, smiling at me. And I want to keep them closed, to forever see that smile that I love. You haunt me in my dreams, and no matter how hard I try, I cannot escape you. But I don't try.
You smile at me, and my heart sings, and I wonder, do you know what you do to me? Do you even have the slightest clue how you make me feel? When I am with you, I feel that life will go on forever, and that nothing could ever go wrong as long as you're there. I am safe, protected from the evils inside my mind; protected from myself. And for one moment, I am content with the way things are, satisfied with my life, just by being close to you.
When you are sad, I wonder, is it because of me? Because of the things I've done, all the troubles I've put you through? And I want to cry, because suddenly, the world doesn't seem so wonderful. But I stop myself, because I have to be strong; for the both of us. It's funny, how you control my feelings, all of me really. If you told me to do something, I'd do it, no matter the consequences. Because somehow, I know that everything would be okay. Because I trust you.
Do you trust me? If I held out my hand, would you reach for it? I'd put my life in your hands. I don't know why, it's just a feeling you give me.
You have the power to make me laugh; I can't help it around you. For some reason, I'm happy. Just thinking about you makes me smile, because that you, you that resides and takes shape inside my mind, is almost as good as the real you. Almost.
Can I make you laugh? Do I make you happy? At times the answer seems to be yes, but at others it becomes hazy, and I start to doubt myself.
Am I worthy of your friendship? Here I know that the answer is no, for no one can be worthy of you. Yet here we are, after all these years, after all we've been through, standing side by side. That's what makes you so special.
At times you say you've missed me, and you look up into my eyes, and I want to say I've missed you too, but for some reason, the words get caught on my throat. And it's not that I don't miss you, believe me, I do. I just don't know how to say the truth: That I miss you every moment we're apart.
And I don't really know how to say this, but you have taken over me; my thoughts, my dreams, my life. I need you now. To live, to breathe, to find the strength to continue on. You are my light within my world of darkness, the soul reason for my desire to see tomorrow. Before, I would wake from the want, no, yearning to have an adventure, to experience something exciting and new. Now, after that wish was granted, that longing has not fully left me, but instead I wake to the hope of seeing one face. Your face. And only one thing keeps my eyelids from again closing and shutting out the world. Knowing that you will be there.
If you ever cry, I will wipe your tears away. If you are ever afraid, I will fight until your fears are gone. If you are ever lost, I will not stop until I find you. And if you are ever in danger, I will kill myself before letting anything happen to you.
Because I love you.
A/N: Well, thanks for reading! Please review. I'll accept feedback in all forms: positive, negative, even flames. This is my first time posting anything, so I'd really just like to know what you think of my writing. Again, thanks for reading!