The moonlight was just hitting the pair as Albus turned to Scorpius. The elder of the two growled contently, grabbing at Al and holding him in his arms. The younger boy loved moments like these, yet despised them at the same time. Tonight would be their last night together until the start of next term, and two months seemed like years for the lovers.
"Mmm. Albus." Scorpius moaned as he rubbed against Al's side. It was rare that the boy call him by his full name. He preferred to reserve for the moments post or prior to being intimate.
Al could hardly pay attention, however. His mind was on other things. He knew that he should live in the moment, had been told so by Scorpius a million times, but he could never bring himself to listen.
"Scor—" he was cut off by Scorpius' lips on his own, as the blonde swung a thin leg over his stomach. Albus wasn't in the mood now, though he had been quite willing only moments ago. He pushed at the older boy, gaining a confused look.
This just fueled Scorpius' determination. He was usually so bubbly, gentle with Albus most of the time, but he was completely different in bed. Not that he wasn't sweet – he never intentionally hurt Al and he would always whisper sweet nothing in his ear after they were finished. But when he was in the moment, he tended to get rough now and think later.
Now straddling Albus once more, Scorpius moved to his neck, being sure that he was leaving marks in all the places that showed most. "Gonna have…to….cover up…for sure." He murmured, biting at the sensitive skin after every other word.
"About that", he started, hoping to ease into the hard conversation that was long overdue. This time it was his own moan that cut him off as Scorpius' hand slipped into his boxers.
Getting sidetracked, he thrust up in time with Scorpius' hand, drawing closer to the edge by the second.
"Merlin, Scorpius" he sighed as he released, leaning up into the slytherin above him. Scorpius chuckled. "You look so cute when you cum". Smiling, he retracted his hand after just a few more strokes and took to looking down at his friend, staring. Albus squirmed under his gaze. He always was the more awkward of the two.
Seemingly satisfied with just a memory of the view, Scorpius finally rolled off, draping an arm over Al and snuggling his head into the crook of the boy's neck. " 'M Gonna miss you."
"Yes. .. about that." Al began again, biting his lip. "Hm?" Scorpius mused, raising his brow in half amusement –a trait that Al noted he got from his father. They'd never been properly introduced, but the boy knew quite a bit about the man. This only served to frighten him even more, making the breath catch in his throat as he decided to continue with the suggestion. It was now or never.
"I'm tired of this. Secrets. Lonely Holidays." He was never good at words, but he figured his point was coming across as Scorpius' face slowly turned into a scowl. He knew this was a bad idea, but he had to go on nonetheless. "I think…I mean, maybe it's time to come out? I want to tell my parents and I'd like it if you told yours, too."
This set something rare off in Scorpius; in an instant he was out of the bed and on his feet, staring daggers at Al. "Well, isn't that bloody brilliant! Tell mummy and daddy! Why don't we just go and scream it in the hallway now, too –that's sure to turn out well." His voice was dripping with poison, reeked of sarcasm –this must have been the Malfoy temper that his father was always on about, but he always believed Scorpius to be well above the rumors and stereotype. Albus could already feel the tears welling up in his eyes.
"What? I'm not better than any common secret? A quick shag in-between your classes?"
Scorpius just stared, a vicious humored look plastered on his face. "Sorry not all of us have a saint as a father, Potter. I'm sorry we're not all blessed with the knowledge and amount of love as you."
"Don't." choked Albus, the tears now streaming down his face. " Don't talk to me as if I'm nothing more than my father's name."
"Don't sit here and talk as if I won't be as good as dead if we come out!" Scorpius was now on the verge of screaming. Albus knew this wouldn't be easy, but he never expected this. He opened his mouth to argue, but Scorpius just continued. "Your brother, your father…not to even mention mine."
The words hit Albus like a shower of ice. He knew that it wouldn't be easy, but they'd surely manage. Sure, his brother already bullied them(especially Scorpius), but they could get through it. They had each other. Or so Albus had hoped. With the realization that, perhaps, they really were nothing more than school friends fooling around, his sobs escalated to the point of a nervous breakdown, which only served to fuel Scorpius' fire. As if reading his mind, the boy began to speak with such venom that it wasn't like him at all. But it was laced with something else that Albus couldn't place.
"Don't act as if this was meant to be, because it wasn't. It's against everything that should be and you know it."
This, this Albus knows is a lie –a cover-up. It goes against everything the boy has every said to him. All the late nights spent talking about how he's going to choose his future and not his father, and how even his father, himself, encouraged him to do so. For the first time since the fight, Albus looked up and straight into Scorpius' eyes, causing them to soften slightly.
They looked crushed, pleading. When he spoke, his voice was still powerful, but with less of a bite. "You might have support, but I sure as hell have none."
When Scorpius broke eye contact, Al could tell that he was now fighting a losing battle. Maybe he had been for awhile and just hadn't realized.
"You have me" he whispered between tears, barely audible.
"Yeah, I thought I did." Muttered Scorpius bitterly, now inching toward the door. "Don't worry about telling anyone anything, because there's nothing to tell." And with that, he was out the door, leaving a very confused Albus to his tears. Maybe some secrets and thoughts were better off just as that.
(((So Yeah! I hope you like it. I've been shipping Scorpius/Albus so much lately. I actually have an idea to continue it, so if I get enough people saying they like it then perhaps I will. Sorry about any grammar or spelling mistakes. I have no beta and this goes up as soon as I transfer it from my notebook to my computer.))))