This is my first story I write in English
english isn't my native language,

So it's now -at first not- betaed by black-misty-sky

I am really gratefull to her

I hope that I could keep everyone IC

Disclaimer: I do NOT own KnB
Just the little Ideas down there

Enjoy reading this~

~Kagami's P.O.V.~

Why? Why was this happening? What was going on? Why?
Question after question formed in Kagami's head, but there wasn't any answer... There was just the questions that plagued him without answer.

His hands were drenched with blood, eyes were wide open and brimming with tears. Kagami looked at the dead bodies in front of him blankly. His head hurt, his vision was blurry, and giving up he fell on his knees and began to cry.

His quiet sobs grew louder and louder. Kagami clenched his fists and punched in the puddle of blood on the floor. He continued to sob, and no matter what he did, he couldn't stop. His head hurt so much...

To Kagami everything began to spin around, the walls, the dead bodies, even his own hands. He felt how the last of his energy left his limbs, and as his face met the floor he was brutally knocked unconscious...

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When Kagami woke up his head hurt, where was he? What happened?

Then, all memories from before came flooding back to Kagami in waves. They hit him with a merciless force. His eyes widened and he cried out loud. He shouted. His tears dripped down his cheeks in icy cold trails. Kagami shouted. He shouted so he wouldn't hear how his sister had cried for help. He closed his eyes so he wouldn't see her face. Would have to see how she reached out her hand in her last moments, desperate for her only brother's help.

But it didn't stop. All the pictures, all the voices came back. How these monsters -once his parents- had ensnared his sister. How they tore at her. How they killed her. How they devoured her.

The next thing Kagami recollected was how he had killed those monsters. When they had feverishly attacked him he had wanted to live so badly. Kagami had fought and was safe in the end, but he had let his sister die. He saw this clearly now, he had let her die, let her be killed.

Yes, it was his fault that she had died. Kagami fell on his knees, his eyes wide and he stared at the wall in front of him. The tears still flowed without showing signs of stopping and he wanted to die. He pressed his hands on his face and cried silently on. But then he felt something brush his shoulder. Kagami jumped up ready to fight, ready to kill whatever was there.

"Oi", he heard and Kagami's eyes widened.

"I don't know what happened to you, but try to fight me and you are dead Kagami."

That voice and those words echoed in Kagami's head. And you are dead Kagami… that part of the sentence stuck repeatedly in his thoughts. Kagami wanted to die, didn't he?

He wanted to die because he had killed his own sister. He hadn't helped her when she had needed him the most.

Kagami clenched his fists. One fist shot forward, but there wasn't any force behind it. Kill me, kill me, kill me... he repeated to himself just kill me. When his fist bumped against the chest of the other he knew that his punch hadn't done any damage. It was like, Kagami unconsciously still wanted to live...

To live, when his sister and his parents were dead... To live, when he had killed his sister, because he couldn't do anything against his parents… Kagami had been paralyzed when he had seen his parents in such a state, and as a result he had been unable to help his beloved sister. Wasn't he cruel? Kagami had killed her. His own sister.

Kagami stood there -braced against the other male- while his fist began to sink, powerlessly. It was then that he felt that his wrist being captured in the hand of the other.

He felt numbly as he was pulled forward. He felt how his face hit the chest of the person. A hand was placed comfortingly at the back of his head. Kagami let out a sob and clung at the shirt of this person who wordlessly embraced him in warm arms. Kagami cried silently.

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