A:N/ Hey everyone, It's me again with another story. I'm clearly bored out of my mind right now. I can't sleep so I write, crazy I know.

Anyways, I just have this pop in my head the other day. So I thought I should write it now. It's the beginning of season four, Brooke knows Peyton has feeling for Lucas. Lucas and Brooke broke up. But Lucas is trying to get her back. Peyton is alone, wishing she was strong enough to tell him how she feels. This will not be a long story probably about five chapters.

Living with Heartache!

You don't die from a

a broken heart

you only wish

you did.

Chapter one!

Peyton laid on her bed starring at the ceiling, no music, no other sound. Well expected the ticking of the clock. The room is pitch dark, as she lays there wishing she could go back to the very first day. She saw Lucas, Should've made her move when he looked her in the eyes, then they would be together now. He wouldn't be out there trying to convince Brooke to take him back.

He would be laying beside her, as she whispers in his ear. Words that are old as time, words only he would hear If only he was hers.

"Hey" he said, as he enter her room "Pretty creepy in here" he jokes, as he sat down on her bed.

"Yeah, just need some alone time." she whispered, as she kept her eyes on the ceiling. Her heart beating fast, like it always did when Lucas was near.

"Peyt, you okay" he asked, in that concern voice that makes her love him more.

"Yeah," she whispered. "How is your plan on getting your girl back going" she asked, as she closed her eyes.

He just stay silent, as he looked down at her. She opens her eyes in smiles at him. "Lucas, you know I can read your mind and I know your story. You can't hide anything from me, I see what you're going through. I've be there, in it sucks to want someone who pushed you away." her voice cracks a little. "But don't surrender, cause you will get her back,Love comes to those who believe it"

"Is that what you really think?" he questioned, as moves a strained of hair behind her ear. Their eyes lock

"Yeah, I believe love comes to those who wait, you might have to wait a hell of a long time, but it comes." she smiles, they are starring at each other still. In for a moment she feels like it's the first time they met. She opens her mouth to tell him the three words she has been dying to say.

" I believe it to, When life is empty with no tomorrow and, loneliness starts to call, don't worry, forget your sorrow. 'Cause love's gonna conquer it all." He said, as he leans closer to her, in for a second she believes he is going to kiss her, but he doesn't well he kisses her forehead. Then smiled down at her, "Thanks, I got to go see Brooke" he said, as he jumped off the bed. Her heart literally breaks, as she waves to him. She waits till he is gone before, she cry's her eyes out.

The next day at school, Peyton did whatever she could to avoided seeing Lucas. She really didn't what to hear. About him and Brooke again. She was sitting outside under a big tree pretending to read.

"Hey Sawyer" Nathan said, as he sat down beside her.

"Hey Nate" she was glad it was Nath, "What's up?"

"Nothing much, just try to handle been a senior, having a wife, a baby on it's way, state champions on my mind. " he shook his head.

"Wow, I'm glad I'm not you" She laughed, as his mock of hurt. She felt good sitting their laughing with him. She looks up to Nathan like a big brother.

"So why are we siting alone, wheres your side kick" He asked, as he took a bite of his sandwiches.

"What side kick?" she asked, even through she know who he was talking about.

"Lucas, duh"

"I haven't seen him, since last night. He was declaring his love for Brooke again" she said, coldly as she played with her necklaces.

"So you know huh?" he asked, sadly

"Know what? that Lucas loves Brooke, and he will do anything to get her back, yeah I know" She replied, with a lot of bitterness.

"She did" he whispered, Peyton looked up at him confused, "Brooke and Lucas are back together" he said, sympathetically. "I'm sorry" he lay his hand on her knee.

Peyton closed her eyes hoping to avoided the tears that desperately wanted to fall. She took a deep breath before, opening her eyes. But when she did, she wished she didn't Lucas was sitting on the steps with Brooke on his lap. The tears poured down at that sight, her chest was hurting like it has never hurt before.

"Peyton" Nathan whispered, as he pulled her towards him. "He's a fool you know"

"No, Nath I'm the fool to actually think he would want me" she cried, her eyes were closed, She wasn't aware when Haley join them.

Haley give Nathan a confused look, but once Nathan nodded towards a laughing Brooke and Lucas. She knew what was wrong. "Peyton, it going to be alright" she said, as she patted her back.

"No,it won't" she said, as she stood up she grab her bag in head back inside.

That night she was in the same position, ex-accept she was crying. Lucas walks in to her room smiling with his hands in his pockets. " Is this going to be an every night thing" he laughs, but stops once he sees the tears. "Peyton, whats wrong?" he asked, as he sat down beside her. Her reaches for her hand, but she pulls away from him. She turns over so her back in towards him. She doesn't noticed the hurt look on his face.

His phone rings in he sighs, she knows its Brooke. "Lucas, I want to be alone" she said, as she wiped her eyes.

"Peyt, your upset, I can't leave you like this" He said, as he touched her shoulder. She pushed it off, "Did I do something? Mean you were fine last night" he asked, as he walks to the other side of the bed. His phone rings again.

Peyton lets out a bitter laugh, as she turns away from him. " Go, I'll be fine" she reassures him. "Beside Brooke will be very pissed to know your here with her ex best friend"

He shook his head, "Screw Brooke, Peyton you are clearly upset about something," he was getting frustrated. His phone goes off again

"Clearly, she needs you, so go, " she said, in a demanded voice

"No she doesn't need me. You need me"

"I wouldn't go that far" she said, as she finally turns around to face him.

"I need you." He admits to her. She looks at him and he smiles, but she doesn't return it, instead she turns away.

"Why are you doing this to me?" He holds back on emotions as he asks her..

"I'm not doing anything to you, I just want to be alone" she said, in the most stressed voice ever.

"Peyton, I can't just leave knowing your hurting" his voice is fill with so much love, that it kills her to say what she needs to say.

She turns to him, her eyes red and swollen. Her cheeks stained with all that she's cried within the last minute. "Lucas, go to Brooke in be happy, you deserve to happy. I told you love will come to you." she paused, "We shouldn't hang out anymore" she avoids the look of hurt on his face.

"So we can't be friends?" his voice cranks, in tears glazes his eyes.

"Not right now, it's to hard" she whispered, "Please just give me time" she begged, he didn't say anything more. He walked towards the door then turn around. Giving her one more smile. She didn't smile back in that killed him. "Bye Peyton"

She waited till she heard the front door slam,"Goodbye Lucas" she whispered, as she closed her eyes. "I love you" she said, to the drawing under her pillow.

Well let me know what you think.