"Do You Know How Much You Hurt Me?"
I see you standing there
Wind blowing through your hair
You smile, wave at me
I wave back, just wishing you could see.
You're my friend, that is true
But sometimes I just don't know what to do
About what I feel in my heart
If I spoke, it would tear us apart.
You told me a long time ago
About your emotions, which I'm glad to know
Because then I can hope that possibly
Maybe... maybe you love me.
Of course you don't, you never will,
I'm not good enough for you and the thought makes me ill
To think that someone like me could ever be loved
By an angel like you, who flew from up above.
You're just a friend,
You'll be that way 'till the end
But I wish just once I could tell you for real
The way I actually feel.
I've dreamed of it at night
The words, they felt so right
And yet when I go to speak
I choke, and nothing comes out but a squeak.
I've seen the way he looks at you
How he watches with eyes so blue
I know you tease him, you do it with pride
But don't you realize how it hurts me inside?
Then there's the other, the one so brave.
To think of you and him... It makes me feel grave.
If you ever feel something for him my heart will split
And with a knife my wrist I'll slit.
It hurts to say this, but make up your mind.
I know that you really are very kind
And you don't know how much I hurt
When I see those two boys and you flirt.
Who am I to pine
For a love which will never be mine?
Who am I to think of love like this?
I know I shouldn't but oh, I want to taste your kiss..
I'll go on, I'll keep it inside
I won't ever tell of the secret I hide
Unless you go and give me some sign
That perhaps... perhaps you will be mine.
Author's end notes: Well, boys and girls, didn't that SUCK?! If it did, say "Viva la yuri!"! *hears a chorus of 'viva la yuri's and nods* Thought so.. ^_^