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Organization Hearts: Prolouge
There's a line between what might have been, where we stand to today. You can live your life thinking of how it may have all turned out, but in the end; we end up where we end up. No changing things now.
I'd spent so much time thinking about how things might have been- and how they were. The past sometimes is easier to look at than the future or present. And it gives a good indication of where you may end up in the future. In that case, my future looks full of misery and pain, just like my past.
There are other things I've learned by now. That there are roads I could never cross, never travel down. Maybe I could have before, but now I know there are some things we're just not meant to do, some things we just can't do. To bad I didn't know that before.
Thinking back, I'm still confused when I think about him. Everything we'd ever said, everything that had ever happened between us, was so perplexing. At points, I could have sworn there was something between us. A flame, a spark. And other times, I wondered how I could have ever stood how cold he was. But after everything, he still left. So what did that say about how I felt? About how he felt?
It didn't make sense. Not to me at least. I still can't even imagine what must have been going through his mind, or…
The way things might have been.
It could have all been so different. Things could have turned out right…or at least better than they did now.
But it was my fault too, no doubt. I walked out doors I never should have. I left and crushed those close to me. It didn't make me any better than he was. But I at least felt remorse. I felt the guilt so strongly. There were nights I could barely sleep for it.
And each time I came to the conclusion of this: it wouldn't change a thing. You couldn't undo the damage done.
You couldn't undo what had been done to me either. The images in my head of my world crumbling before my very eyes, as I stood, helpless, could never be erased. The pain inflicted upon my heart would never reverse itself. All of these things made up who I was today…and sometimes I wondered if that was the problem.
So maybe this little insight on myself helped me reason with how he felt. Things couldn't be undone for him either. And he had endured just as much as I had…maybe less, maybe more.
Still, my resentment was strong…so strong, I had to find him. I had to know…the questions that burned in my veins. I thirsted for answers, as so maybe I could calm my soul.
But that's just it. It's all a maybe.
Nothing can make certain I won't fall into destruction's path again.
Because it happens everytime.
My life is still sunken in darkness.