Birthday Blues

First I don't own the Teen titans or any other characters in this story

And second if I did Raven and Robin would be on each other like glue

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Chapter One: Gone but not forgotten

Titan Tower

It was a typical day of training and relaxation for the titans. The usual arguments over meat vs. tofu that Beast Boy and Cyborg kept having wile Starfire tried to settle the argument with her pudding of happiness at which both the boys decided to play video games rather than suffer through Star's pudding. Raven was on the roof in her usual spot for meditating. Robin was no where to be found by the other members of the team, but this didn't worry the Titans much only cause he did this a lot, he would just sneak off somewhere and would turn up for the next meal or at least by the next day.

The only thing that the Titans didn't know about their fearless leader is that he would disappear to a secret room in the tower that not even Cyborg knew about and this was he felt the one place that he could have some peace and quiet. The room consisted of a punching bag, a weight machine (much like a bow flex), a T.V. with a list of videos in the wall that have things of a personal nature like a video diary, a computer that allows him to access all of the titans computer information, and a small cot for him to sleep on. It's true that Robin has a room like the others with a king sized bed and his desk and the wall that has all the newspaper articles over it, but he never sleeps in that bed when he sleeps. He is either in his private room or there is a hammock that hangs just above the door incase someone tries to sneak up on him in the middle of the night.

What he was doing in his "room" is actually the same thing that Raven was doing on the roof but unlike her who preferred the fresh air and sunlight Robin's meditations were not just for relaxation and focus, they are also as a replacement for sleep. In many cases he will but himself into an almost hibernation state but only leaves him partially aware of his surroundings which is why he uses the secret room.

Rec Room

" Come on Star no one wants your pudding", yells Cyborg trying to avoid Sratfire's content attempts to shove pudding down his throat.

" But friend Cyborg it will make you feel happy and overly joyful to partake of the pudding". Encourages Starfire

" Look Star I'm sure your pudding is delicious and everything its' just that," Cyborg thinks carefully trying not to hurt her feelings says, " I have to give the T-car its 3,000 mile oil change and its' weekly wax job so see ya." As he jets off to the garage.

Meanwhile Robin having finished his meditation walks in the room to see what all the noise was about.

And the first thing he sees is the kitchen in shambles and Starfire holding a very large bowl that he deduced contained Star's homemade pudding.

Just as he was about to turns around he heard Beast Boy call his name for a package that was just dropped off at the main door for him.

Quickly rushing over to see what it was because he rarely got any mail besides some fan letters and a couple things for Bruce Wayne. So this mystery box was quite a shock to him.

Quickly tearing off the brown paper that wrapped the box and then opening it he found himself looking at what looked like his cape with a note attached to it. It read

Dear Robin,

I hope this gets to you in time for your birthday; I have upgraded your cape in the lab so it will not only look good but also be 50X stronger than your old one

Sincerely,

Batman

Robin just stood there looking at the new and improved cape wile beast boy had to ruin what Robin considered perfectly good silence with " Dude, how come you didn't tell us it was your birthday we would have had a huge party set up for you man."

" Oh yes friend Robin why did you not tell us that is was the glorious day of your birth for us to celebrate," Star said while giving Robin a bone crunching hug, " We must set up the decorations at once to celebrate our leaders day of birth!"

" Beast Boy, Star, do you really think that I want a big party when I didn't even tell you that is WAS even my birthday." Robin said real trying to emphasize the point he was trying to make.

" Well no but that doesn't mean that were not going to through one anyways right Star."

" Oh most certainly yes friend Robin we will hold a most spectacular party with balloons, and a donkey made of candy to beat to tiny bits with a stick, it will be most enjoyable", Starfire said with the larges grin on her face that made Robin give in to there demands.

" Fine we'll have a party but please nothing over the top ok."

They both nodded with approval and went to work informing the other of the occasion and the future festivities.

Training room

Robin attacked the punching bag in front of him with an odd sense of determination in his movements. Feeling that by working out the others would forget it was his birthday and would go through there normal routine and leave him alone for the rest of the day.

But of course the other wouldn't forget and he knew it was inevitable that he would have to make an appetence to the party and all he wanted to do was be left alone like he had done since he started the Titans. The expectation of the team to celebrate another year gone without really stopping the major criminals of Jump City like Slade and the H.I.V.E. he just didn't feel like celebrating this small accomplishment in his life of being one year older just didn't matter to him anymore.

He had just finished up with a 36 hit combo on the bag when he sensed someone behind him and almost out of instinct dropped a smoke ball and wile the person was distracted and coughing he seemed to just disappear and reappear behind her and before she knew it she was starring face to face with Robin.

" Was that really necessary Robin?" said Raven in a slightly annoyed tone

" Sorry just a reflex…. So what do you want Raven." Robin said in his usual 'Leader' voice

" I'm just curious about the reason that in 3 years you never told us when your birthday was, it's just a bit suspicious that's all." She said leering at him.

" Well why didn't you tell us about the prophecy that was made about your birth?"

" Because that was private and none of your concern."

" My point exactly."

" That's not a good enough answer to my question … plus your hiding something so spill before I get Star in here with some pudding."

" Now that's hitting below the belt with the pudding, fine but the reason is I don't feel like there is a reason to celebrate another year going by when we really hadn't done anything outstanding like catch Slade or stop the H.I.V.E. for good, it just doesn't seem like we did anything at all with this year so why celebrate."

" That's the dumbest fucking thing I've ever heard come out of your mouth, what about beating Terra, Killer Moth, Plasmas, Control Freak, and Dr. Light Robin what about that." Raven said in an almost yelling volume.

" Okay First off Terra doesn't count cause she was under Slade's control at the time and she fought back agents it, secondly Control Freak," Robin raised an eyebrow at that, " he doesn't count because the kid uses a crappy supped up remote as his weapon of choice I mean really he doesn't count."

" Okay I can agree with you on that one but we have done too much this past year to say it was a waste."

" So besides the pep talk why did you come here?"

" What to you mean by that Robin I came here to understand why you didn't want to celebrate your birthday nothing more?"

" Liar, you came to find out what color they are didn't you." He said with a smirk.

" I don't know what you mean." Looking a bit nervous at the question.

" Come on Rae you've been trying to figure that question out since the day you meet me haven't you?" Robin says with a slight smirk on his face

" How did you know that?" Raven says with a slight shiver in her voice now and a shocked look in her eye.

" You may portray the look of indifference but its your gorgeous eyes that give you away every time you look at my mask I can see it in your eyes."

Now a slight blush was coming over Raven's face that she couldn't control. At this Robin just smiled and said, " If you tell me something that I don't know about yourself I just might let you see them." He said with all the confidence in the world

Raven still getting over the fact that Robin knew that she more that anyone on the team had wondered what color eyes he had was wondering if he was playing some mean joke or would he actually grant one of her secret desires, the true color of his eyes.

"Fine I have a tattoo of a Raven on the small of my back." She said with all the seriousness that she could muster at the moment.

" Really, can I see it?" He said with a slight shock in his voice.

" Only if you promise me that you will take off the mask and show me your eyes." She said.

" Deal, you first."

She slowly turned around so that her back was facing him and undid the back of her leotard before moving her cloak reveling that Raven did indeed have a raven tattooed on the small of her back. Robin just stared in amazement that of all people Raven would go and get a tattoo shocked him.

Quickly ending the show she turned around and said, " Okay Boy Wonder time to show me what you've got."

" You know someone could take that comment the wrong way you know," she just glared at him with a look of death in her eyes, " fine, fine but this stays between us okay I don't need Star bugging me every ten seconds just cause you got to see them and she didn't okay."

Raven gave a nod of acceptance to the terms of that agreement and Robin proceeded with his grand unveiling. As slowly as possible to Ravens point of view Robin lifts his had to his black and white mask and slowly pulls it away reveling that he had two different colored eyes. The right eye was a deep emerald green wile the left eye was a smooth chocolate brown.

Raven was staring into his two toned gaze like it was a hypotonic state that she would never wake from. When Robin gave her a slight tap on the shoulder asking if everything was all right. She broke form the trance with a slight blush.

" Fine…everything is just fine," she stated with a noticeable surprise in her voice.

" Well I think we should get ready for this party that those three are creating and get it over with, don't you." Robin said with a noticeable tone of sarcasm.

As they left the gym all that was on Raven's mind was how could he have two different colored eyes, it just didn't seem right.

" If your wondering how its possible for the coloring just look at my DNA profile and look very closely and the helix formations that is where you will get your answer." He said knowing what she was thinking.

Taken back by the fact that he new what she was thinking about again she decided to go straight to the Med Lab and see what he was talking about. After about 20 minutes of looking up DNA profiles on the Boy Wonder she finally found was he was talking about. Robin has a third helix attached to the normal double helix found in all humans. Having this extra helix made her realize why he could beat every member of the team but still didn't account for the two toned eyes he had so she dug a little deeper. What she found out was amazing, the fact that Robin had two different genetic code markers in his body. Essentially he is two people in one and the only way that could happen is if, in his fetal development he was supposed to have a twin and it got absorbed into one body.

This shocked the titan with the fact that Robin should be considered a metahuman but at the same time couldn't because all metahumans had some kind of powers and as Beast Boy constantly reminds him, he doesn't have any. Still not satisfied with the results Raven continues to dig into the Boy Wonders medical past and she finds another thing that surprises her. His muscle density was at least 45 more compact that humanly possible. Meaning that for the amount of strength that he has should be almost cut in half if he was a normal human.

Raven always wondered how he could be so strong and at the same time be so fast and agile, now she knew. He wasn't a normal human being. She sat back feeling exhausted for the shock of what she had discovered about her leader. Letting her mind wander for what seemed like a few minutes when she herd BB's voice yelling at her to come and join the party.

The party looked a lot like the one that they had thrown for her last year. In fact they used the same decorations just crossed out the name and replaced it with Robin's. She was looking around for Robin to ask him about what she has recently uncovered about him.

Spotting him by the punch bowl she drags him just outside the room to ask him questions.

" What exactly are you?' she said

" So I take it you've gone through the medical logs then," he said in a monotone voice, " I'm what you would call a chimera, two beings in one when I was born in my development my body absorbed my brother and he became apart of me."

" Okay …that explains what I all ready know but do you know about."

" My muscle density you mean," he interrupted, " It's not just my muscles that are like that its my bones, some of my organs, that's why I can endure so much pain and torture, even my skin is thicker than a normal persons."

" Why didn't you tell us about this," she said with a surprised tone in her voice, " Didn't you think that something like this was worth mentioning to us … to me." The last part was said so soft that he almost didn't hear it.

" Personally I didn't think it was any of your business what I am and what I can do, you of all people should understand that."

" Robin, why do you wear the mask?"

" To keep my identity secret why else," he said but she just kept glaring at him, something in her eyes made him feel like she wasn't going to give him a choice in the matter, " fine if you really want to know I didn't anyone to know about me I was afraid people would treat me different than they use to, especially you guys, so there you happy now," he finished with a less that forgiving sound to his voice.

" You selfish bastard, you FUCKING BASTARD all you can think about is your secrets, your shame that you are like this, you don't see what you have and appreciate what you have with this team to even show your own eyes out of shame," the volume and sound of her voice was bad enough so scare him but he didn't let on as she continued, " you really don't see the things that are right in front of you when there screaming at the top of there lungs."

She finally calmed down and gave Robin a chance to respond, " so are you telling me you like me or what." With that said he grabbed Raven by the shoulders and pulled her into a deep passionate kiss at which she melted into his touch. All Raven felt was his lips upon hers, the feeling of him pressing against her body was all she could think about and she never wanted it to go away.

" Maybe I Am. " she whispered into his ear at which point the alarms started to go off

" Sounds like there playing our song Rae, come on we can finish this later." He said and rushed into the rec room to see what the alarm was about.

Apparently the Tower's sensors were picking up an anomaly just outside the meteor belt of the solar system.

" It has the potential of ripping the fabric of this dimension in half." Stated Cyborg

" Well that just means we have to close it up," Robin said. " Any ideas on how to do that?"

" Well if I can reconfigure the sonic blasters on the T–ship to the opposite polar configuration of the anomaly that should seal it up."

" Dude, I have no idea what you just said." Said Beast Boy with the familiar look of confusion on his face.

" Were going the put a band-aid on it." Cyborg stated for the confused changeling.

" How long will it take you to do that Cy," Robin said, "cause it doesn't look like we have a lot of time by the rate that its growing."

With that said the titans got to work helping Cy with the configurations to he T–ship except for Beast Boy cause cyborg said he would just get in the way.

After about three hours they were finally ready for take off. All the preparations were made and just after take off Cyborg contacted Robin on a secure channel.

" Rob, I have to tell you that there is a chance that we will be pulled into the anomaly while trying to fix it." Cy said

" I know and if that starts to happen I want all of you to separate and try to close it that way," said Robin with no emotion in his voice.

" Wait if we separate then that means you would get shot into the anomaly for the cause of the separation process." Cy said almost yelling at him.

" I know and that is why your going to lead the team if that happens, I won't let anything happen to the rest of you when it can be avoided." He said

Just then his COM channel blinked and it was switched over to Raven's

" I know what your planning as a back up Robin," She said with a slight amount of concern in her voice.

" Than I'm sure you understand the reason that it has to be done." He said revealing nothing in his voice.

" Have you considered what will happen to the team if your not there anymore, or is this just you playing the hero that you love so much, cause if it is than…"

" First off,' he interrupted, " I'm not playing anything, and second I'm sure that we won't have to use the back up plan. Now if you will concentrate on the mission at hand it will be over that much sooner okay."

" Fine but when we get back you and me are going to have a long talk about this." Raven said with a hint of anger.

" About my personality or about your feelings for me?" he said with a slight arrogance to his voice.

". …Maybe both but if you say anything to the others you will regret it, besides I'm not sure Star wouldn't appreciate it very much." She said mockingly.

" Yeah she is kind of clingy around me isn't she?" he said laughingly, " all right were almost there so we can finished this later.

As they approached the anomaly they just looked at it. It was what looked like a gigantic rip in space, around the edges it had a slight magenta hue to it and lightning crossed the opening randomly when Cyborg came over the com channel to say, " Alright y'all we just need to stay 500 kilometers form the opening and aim right in the middle to close it … and fire." The T–ship fired its sonic cannons at the opening and it seemed to be working, the tear was getting smaller by the second until Robin got on the Com system and yelled

"SEPARATE NOW ITS NOT CLOSEING ITS CONCENTRATING."

Immediately Cyborg hit the separation button and the one ship turned into five, and while the other ships veered away for the opening Robin's section shot out straight towards it. And what looked like one shot of lightning hit the ship and it disappeared into the anomaly and with that it closed.

In the shock of the recent events the other titans went back to earth in complete silence. The first person to speak after the ordeal was Beast Boy (of all people) " Dude, I can't believe he's actually gone." At this Starfire busted into tears that she was trying to hold back and ran to her room crying her eyes out. All Raven felt was a numbing sensation throughout her entire body and levitated to her room and in complete darkness cried till the next morning. Going down to the kitchen for breakfast to find Cyborg standing there with a cup of coffee in his hand, shaking almost violently before he set his cup on the counter and but his face in his hands and started mumbling to himself, " I told you this would happen man, why did you have to do this…why Rob," and he started to quietly sob in his hands.

Raven, broken out of her concentration on what Cyborg was saying by her teakettle whistling, reached for it with a shaking hand, which she controlled, as much as possible to pour herself a cup and sat down next to Cyborg and slightly started to sip her tea.

" Rae do you think he's really gone" Cy said through his tears.

" I don't know," she said honestly, " but if he isn't I'm sure he'll find a way back no matter how long it takes, he'll come back to us don't worry" trying to be as comforting as possible. And decided to go back to her room and meditate. However when she got to her room, she floated to her bed and collapsed onto her bed and began to cry in the empty darkness of her room. " You knew this would happen didn't you Robin?" she asked herself in between tears, " why did you have to leave now after we just got close, why…why." As she started to sink into the waterfall of tears running down her pale face until she fell asleep on her bed.

All over the tower you could hear the sounds of sadness and loss. Raven herd a knock at her door to find Starfire standing there with tears streaming down her face, " friend Raven what will we do, our Robin is gone and I fear that we will never see him again, how could this happen."

Feeling that hiding the truth from her would make it worse she told her what Robin had said in the ship, " Star, Robin told Cy to separate the ship in order to save the rest of us, that's why he's gone, he did it to save us all."

" But why did fried Robin not discuss his plan with the rest of us maybe we could have found an alternative to his sacrifice so that he could still be with us now, why Raven WHY," at that point all Star could do is cry while pulling Raven into a soft hug with Raven trying to sooth her best friend.

' You better come back Robin for all our sakes.'

Robin's Pod

SEPARATE NOW ITS NOT CLOSING ITS CONCENTRATING." I yelled praying that they get away in time. ' I'm sorry Raven that we won't get that chat,' I thought to myself, ' I really am'

Just then the pod got struck by the lightning that was going across the anomaly's opening. And while it fried most of the systems it arced thru out the cabin and started to hit all over his body with electrical shocks, even with his unique physiology it was too much for him to remain conscious as he entered the anomaly into the unknown.

I hope you enjoyed the story so far and I would love to hear your thoughts but please keep in mind that this is my first fanfic. And I beg you to keep that in mind when writing.

Also the part about Robins physiology I made up so don't read to much into it because its fake.