A/N: I know I have two unfinished stories and I will get to them eventually but I haven't read any stories with Liz' ex, Nick, and I was given amazing ideas involving him and I really wanted to write it so thank you red lighting, here it is!

"You didn't want us to have our own child which I could understand that since you wanted to adopt and I fully supported your decision, but now you don't want that either? What the hell is going on, Liz?"

By this point Liz wasn't even listening anymore, she was sick of the arguments that Tom kept starting every time something baby related popped up, they were all the same anyway. Ever since she pulled out of the adoption Tom had been trying to push her towards starting a family traditionally. He always brought up the fact that there was nothing wrong with either of them and if she didn't want to adopt then they could have their own child. Liz thought that she had wanted a child, to adopt one that is. She had always told Tom it was because she was adopted and wanted to give a child a family like Sam had and of course that was the reason, just not all of it. She could not bear to lose another child of her own and if she had one with Tom, who was to say that their child wouldn't be taken either?

Years prior

"And here she is! Ten toes and ten fingers, let's just clean her up a bit then would you like to hold her?" Liz could only nod as tears streamed down her face. She's beautiful. Her life wasn't perfect, her and Nick were having some problems and the pregnancy was a complete surprise but now that she was here none of that really mattered. Looking up, Liz squeezed Nick's hand gently and gave him a small smile which quickly fell as she saw his face, he still didn't believe her.

Just before she became pregnant, she met Tom. She noticed him at a friend's party and they became fast friends soon after and not long after that, Nick got jealous. It only took three weeks of Tom knowing Liz for him to accuse her of cheating and that was when the problems started. A few months later and he still didn't believe her and that was when she said she was pregnant, thinking that that would put his mind at ease. But it didn't. He thought that the baby was Tom's even though Liz promised that Tom had left for some business for a few months before she was pregnant and that they had never slept together. Throughout the pregnancy this continued and now sitting with him in the delivery room, Liz knew that he still doubted her. But it wasn't until a month later that he dropped the bombshell, Tom had gotten in touch recently, he still didn't know that Liz had been pregnant and now had a little girl and she was expecting the suitcase to be about that. She had put Katie down to sleep an hour ago and she herself was starting to fall asleep on the sofa until she heard thuds coming from upstairs. Turning around she saw Nick dragging a suitcase down the stairs and her heart stopped, she didn't think their relationship was that broken.

"Nick?" she jumped up from the sofa as he made his way out the front door, they had to at least talk before he just left her and their daughter.

"I'm sorry Liz but I can't do this, I thought I could but I can't. I don't believe that Katie is Tom's and I shouldn't have been so mistrusting but this isn't fair on either of us." They were now standing on the driveway in front of their house and Liz couldn't believe what she was hearing. If he didn't care about Tom then why was he leaving?

"I don't understand if it isn't Tom then what? What isn't fair?"

"I know we have Katie now and I will stay in touch but I can't stay, I don't love you anymore." And there it was. Just five words to end it all. Liz thought the problem had been Tom but this had just completely blindsided her, when did this happen and why didn't he say anything? That's it, no warning? But before Liz could ask him any of those questions he was pulling out in his car and heading down the street. She immediately pulled her phone out and dialled his number. Number disconnected.

He had already thought it all through without telling her and he was never going to call. She didn't fight the tears as she stood alone in the street, but as she turned around again she knew she had to get back inside and check on Katie. Now she was all she had left.

Seconds later screams filled the house as Liz ran about looking for her daughter. This could not be happening; she was out for two minutes how could she be gone? It was evident that someone took her but why, how? She didn't know the answers; just that she had to find Katie.

Present

Thinking back to that time, Liz held back the tears. She had never found Katie. The motives and the kidnappers behind it all were never found even when she joined the FBI. She had hoped she could find something when she got the job, she had believed that she was still alive despite what everyone had told her but now, sitting in the kitchen arguing with Tom, she struggled to believe Katie was alive. A year after that incident she and Tom found their way back to each other and she thought she could have her old life back but now she was feeling like she was going around in circles. A few months after she was swept off her doorstep by Agent Ressler, Tom touched on the subject that all of her late nights were spent not at work, but with Ressler and Liz couldn't help but laugh at the accusation as she and Ressler didn't even like each other. Even though now they had become great partners, now friends it still wasn't true but Tom still added it to the list of things to argue about with her.

"Is that it? You don't want to adopt because you're with that Boy Scout?" and so it continued…

"Look, Tom, for the hundredth time now we aren't involved with each other okay? With everything that is happening right now with the job and the fact that you obviously don't trust me I don't think it is the right time for a child!" Tom didn't even offer an argument back as he stormed off with his coat like he did most times when the fought, she didn't know where he went but he was always on the sofa the morning after full of apologies and the old "we'll get through this" speech. After every fight Liz believed less and less in that speech, especially since Red had warned her about him and told her he wasn't who she thought he was even though she wasn't sure what he was talking about. But secrets can't always be kept forever.

A/N: it does and doesn't follow the script of the show since there are bits from episodes but I've already railroaded a bit… Hope you enjoyed it so far, thanks again to red lighting for the story ideas I'm excited to continue!