Does she love me? Do I love her? Will my lust ever grow, until it becomes love? Will I ever get the enjoyment I want with her? Will I forever remain unrequited in love? Will I ever be confident to confront them?

There are so many questions. So many that I fear will remain unanswered.

Maybe she could write a soothing poem that will end this lust. Or maybe she will invent a solution that will end that love. It's all so strange in my head. I can't trust myself. I lust one, but love another. I feel like such a tease, but I'm sadly unrequited in love/lust.

There's a girl. Her name is Isadora Quagmire. I prefer to call her Izzy. She's BEAUTIFUL, but most of all she is so unbelievable sexy. I can't describe just how desirable she is, without sounding like a pervert. She could make perfect children with me, but unfortunately she isn't someone who I would wish to have my child with, because that would mean that I would have to have a relationship with her, but I am not yet sure that I'm in love with her. I would only like to share my life with family, and I'm not sure I would want her in my family. I would just like her as a pleasurable friend.

The problem is, I am in love with someone in fact, someone I shouldn't be in love with, and no, I'm NOT gay.

I know, and have known for a long time, what incest is, and that it's wrong. I never thought that I would be affected by it. Things have changed since then. I have fallen for Violet, my sister. She is gorgeous and such an amazing person. I would give my entire life to be with her. Luckily, as brother and sister, we're close anyway, but I would like to be closer than brother and sister. One day I wish that me and Violet will become man and wife, but this is a wish that can only be thought, and never even imagined in reality. I am passionately in love with Violet, but I don't think I'll ever have the courage to confront her about it, especially when Sunny is living with us.

To be truthful, I can't choose between them. I know I'm probably NEVER going to get any of them but I can't seem to choose between my love for Violet or my lust for Izzy. It's just something I'm going to have to deal with, I guess. It will be hard, but life is hard.

Klaus Baudelaire

17.01.10

- 22:00