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Chapter One...

"Meredith! It's been so long! When I found your note on the counter my heart stopped. I swear to God Christina is gonna be pissed at you! Telling us not to look for you and you'll be back after you figure thing's out after 4 years! What have you got in that head of yours?" Izzie said in a rush as she picked meredith up at the airport. She wasabout to

start talking again when a little figure stepped out from behind meredith. "Oh my God." Izzie's voice was barely a whisper. "Izzie listen I know I've been gone for 4 years but please be a good friend and don't tell anyone just yet. This is my daughter Lilly Anne Grey." Meredith said a grin breaking out across her face.

"Lilly baby this is auntie Izz."

"Hi Lilly." Izzie watched the little girl as she bounced up and down her black curls following and her blue eyes glistening with excitement.

She looked the exact replica of Derek Sheppard.

"Meredith umm maybe this isn't the right time, but he's a wreck. He mopes around the hospital and Addison is always so perky around him but he just glares at her. Well like she's satan, which she is but I mean really you should have told him you were leaving. When he found out you transferred I saw him in an exam room crying! Crying for Gods sake!"

"Izzie, I left because I didn't know what else to do. I came back because I was offered a residency job at seattle grace starting tomorrow. Lilly and I are both exhausted and we need to get rest. I have to be at the hospital tomorrow at 6:00 am and I think I might pass out if I don't sit down. So please Izz take us home..."

Izzie smiled and took Lilly's hand and then picked her up. "She's beautiful Mer." She said in a hushed whisper.

"Thanks Izz" Was the sleepy reply.

Once they got home Meredith took Lilly and opened the door where George was waiting for them. When he saw Lilly asleep in her arms his smile was genuine. He looked at her and said "tomorrow then?"

"Thanks George. We're just really tired."

And with that the two of them took of for the stairs Lily's curly hair falling around her face.

The next morning came all to soon. Meredith got up and got ready and then at the last minute took Lilly to the daycare center at the hospital. She smiled at her sleepy daughter and kissed her on the forehead. "Have fun today princess and I'll see you at lunch."

"Bye mommy!"

Meredith rushed to the elevator and pressed the up button she stepped in just as someone stepped out.

She looked up just in time to see Derek Sheppard staring at her with his jaw open just before the elevator door closed.

"crap." Meredith said out loud to herself. "crap..."

Meredith walked out of the elevator and practically ran to the chiefs office.

"Dr. Grey!" Richard's voice shouted out a smile plastered across his face. "We are so happy to have you back in the game at Seattle Grace! How's Lilly anne? He asked her. "The spitting image of her mother I assume?"

"Actually more like her father sir." She laughed

"Well Meredith your secrets safe with me." He promised her seeing the look of anxiety on her face as well as the joy of him mentioning Lilly.

"Thank you sir."

"Well we have a new pack of interns assigned to you Dr. Grey and pre-round start at 6:30 I just wanted to let you know if you need anything, anything at all, let me know."

"we missed you here Dr. Grey, some of us more than others" He added under his breath.

"That's all and just welcome back Meredith..."

Meredith opened the door and practically fell over from the person she ran into. "Good morning Dr. Sheppard" She said and walked briskly by. "It is now isn't it?" He asked her smiling for the first time in about 4 years. "Can I talk to you for a minute Meredith? Please I want to talk to you." He pleaded as they walked by the nurses station. As people saw them more talk was uttered people whispered and people smiled knowingly. They knew Dr. Derek Sheppard was a wreck after Meredith Grey left and they knew he was a nervous wreck now that she was back. "No Dr. Sheppard I have to get going to my interns. Glaring at him she walked away but he ran to catch up. "Mer please you left so suddenly. I've missed you please. If not now then maybe over lunch? Please Mer..."

"I'm sorry no Dr. Sheppard I have plans for lunch already." She smiled to herself thinking it wasn't necessarily untrue.

He looked as if she slapped him across the face and he walked away looking back at her with those sad eyes.

She shook her head and went to go greet her interns.

Lunch came quicker then she had planned and she had successfully avoided Derek the whole day.

"MEREDITH!" Someone shouted her name she looked up and smiled at Christina Yang from across the hall. She ran over to her and enveloped her in a hug. Christina hugged back, which was pretty weird behavior for her.

"Oh my God!" She exclaimed and smiled for all she was worth. Then suddenly she frowned "WHY THE HELL DID YOU LEAVE WHAT THE HECK WERE YOU THINKING, YOU BRAIN DEAD IDIOT!" She screamed as Meredith sat in a corner laughing so hard she was practically crying.

"Christina calm down" she gasped between laughs and sobs. "I have someone I want you and George to meet." She smiled up at her and looked over at George who had just entered the room.

"Lilly sweet heart this is Aunt Chris and this is Uncle George. Baby can you say hi?" She asked her four year old daughter down at the daycare center. Christina was still in shock and looked down at the little girl when she said hi. George however was ecstatic. "Hi Lill can I call you Lill? What's your favorite color angle? You like angle or princess better? He asked excitedly. Meredith's smile was contagious and Christina found herself talking to the little girl with the black hair and blue eyes.