Behind the Scenes

by Loretto

Dani's thoughts on Nico's radio silence and odd behavior during Season 3. She had a lot of anger and mistrust for him, and I think it might be interesting to explore her thought process. I've heard the suggestions about incorporating Nico's thoughts into it/kind of a he said/she said, and I'm going to do that eventually.

1. Behind the Scenes

How many messages had she left, how many texts had she sent, asking if he was OK? Easily a dozen. She didn't give up easily. She remembered Marshall Pittman telling her that when he left, he left without saying goodbye, but she honestly hadn't thought that would apply to her.

She felt so many emotions. First and foremost was worry - had something happened to him? Was he even seeing those texts?Otherwise, why wouldn't he just reply to let her know she was OK? That was all she really needed to know.

Then there was doubt - Was their friendship ever what it seemed to be? Was he ever what she thought he was? She thought that there was a connection and a mutual respect there. Had her mind dreamed it up to dignify her undeniable physical attraction to him?

Sometimes there was guilt. Had he seen her with Matt? Was he that hurt? It seemed unlikely, considering that their relationship consisted of a good friendship and some very good kisses?

More often than she would have imagined, there was anger - what happened to that friendship he seemed to value? Didn't it merit at least a simple text telling her that he'd left? Yes, she probably would have persisted, but he could have said that he didn't want to continue their friendship and left it at that. (She hoped she would have given up if he'd told her that.)

Always, there was loss.