We lived somewhere beautiful, it was a place that the three of us snuck off to for the sensation of life and the reason to live. The grass was just a perfect green, soft, so soft without anything to bug you so that you could dance through it perfectly barefooted. We'd walk down those train tracks, tracing down to where we resided, where we believed that life would be an easy flow, kind've like a blow off class on one of the exceptionally good days. Just.. walk on the edges or the railing to attempt and balance ourselves, or fall carelessly knowing that one, or the other, would be there to catch us at the brief moment of the intentional fall.
Those morning rises always showed this ring of sunlight that embraced the sky with the warmth and comfort, showing the bright sky to enlighten us with the pleasure of simply waking up.. on a different day, a new, worth-while day. I'd watch you, specifically, shuffle outside barefooted. You'd careless of your pajamas, leaning foreward to spread your arms with a loving smile at the first few beats of the morning. Your hair had grown significantly longer over those summer days, the small breezes and sea gusts made me realise this. We had an understanding, you and I. We appreciated the same things, wished for things out of the ordinary.. and wanted to fly.
You'd turn, clasping your hands behind your back. Just watching your eyes light up with enthusiasm, asking us other two when we could start working on that special project again. When could we make a difference, and why did we wait all this time to do so. Your questions would keep coming and I'd get lost enough to smile as an answer. Sometimes you'd have doubt, which would sadden me on those perfect days. You'd wonder if you really could make a difference in anything. I simply thought that you changed the two of our lives and gave us meaning for the first time since I crossed the road and headed into the store. All I wanted was a soda...
I'd remember when fall began to roll in. The skies grew cloudy with a smokey grey, with an ash like the cigarettes that our teachers had smoked. The raindrops just grew too cold and your skin grew so pale.
He and I would watch and wait for the moment to tell you that we could achieve anything you had wished for, but it didn't work out. The rays of light turned to darkness and my heart fell back into that sickening ache.
I appreciate being able to stay at Jinn's house, sometimes going unnoticed. The things people don't know, the things that I have locked inside this aged body only proves that my living without a purpose is a result to her telling me that the only sure thing about the future is uncertainty, and that.. since her body grew pale and cold, I didn't have her there to tell me that my vision has to be clear so that someday... just someday, she'd be able to say it all over again.
"You two are the reason my heartbeats, Drake, and Asper."