You are not alone as long as you're mine.

Chapter 1

Jasper: AxStupidxLamb

Alice: Blond Velma

Shattered Dreams Fade to Pixie Dust.

Jaspers POV

Day after day I endure the fiery pain of thirst. Day after day I refuse the one thing I want. Day after day I ask … why? Why must I deny who I was? Why do I bother? Why must I give up everything? … Why must I surrender?

So the day had to come when I would leave the Cullen's. I hoped it would never happen but it just wasn't meant to be. I wasn't meant to have a normal happy life with the one I loved. I accepted that about myself and took matters into my own cold, bloody hands. It started on the night I killed Bella Swan's heart.

Thirst- the girl- her- I want her- must have her.

That's all I remember thinking that evening. Blinded by the pull of thirst. I was dragged, screaming and growling outside by Emmett and Alice. Once the clean air hit me my senses became my own and I pulled free of them.

"Damn it!" I howled.

"Jazz don't worry, Bella's fine." Alice tried to frantically cheer me up but it was useless, I had unconsciously made my choice then. My path had been chosen. All that was left was for me to place one foot in front of the other and walk the path that I was inevitably destined to walk.

"No thanks to me!" I spat, pacing towards the forest.

"Where are you going?" She asked. I tried to ignore the waves of angst and love she was sending me.

"Away," was all I whispered, barely making sense of what I was saying. I just knew I had to leave.

"Don't be a coward!" Emmett growled at me. This caught my attention and I spun on him, run forward and grabbed his throat.

"I am no coward." A small part of my fury died away then, I couldn't be angry with my little brother. "I merely know a lost battle when I see one." I released my grip slowly from his neck and pulled him into a brotherly hug. "It was great knowing you brother, I hope with all my black heart that we will meet again some day."

"What are you talking about, Jasper?" Emmett muttered, I could see and feel his exasperation.

"I have done nothing but cause your family grief since I joined it. It's time I left you to get on with your life." I turned to Alice now. Alice, my other half, my love… my wife. I sighed and picked up her hand and kissed it.

"You picked me up when I was down, Ally, but now it's time I embraced the true me and stop pretending I'm something I'm not." I looked away but she placed her hand under my chin and made me face her.

"Jazz, baby, please don't leave, stay with me. The truth is you belong with me, you are my husband, not anything else."

"No, you are not understanding me, I…" I gulped and closed my eyes. "I have had enough of everything, I can't become a vegetarian because I don't want to."

"No… I know you… you don't give up." She stuttered pathetically.

"Maybe it is time for a change, I have given up, there's no place for me here." She placed her small hand in mine, her sorrow felt like stabs to my heart, making me understand all the more that I had overstated my welcome and had caused more pain. I had left to escape the pain, yet it follows me, haunting.

"Your place is with me, forever." I shock my head and turned, placing my back on the only person who took the time to get to know me. Goodbye, my love, live your life without me, it will be much better that way.

"I will remember your voice, Ally, I will always think of you, singing, happy. Come on, smile, for me, I don't want this to be a sad ending. It is a great thing, you may have a great life without having to give it up for me."

"How can I smile Jazz, when you're leaving me and taking part of my soul with you?"

"Your soul is with you, where it belongs, I have nothing to do with you now. Farwell Mary Alice Brandon, may you live well."

"WAIT!" Emmett finally piped into the conversation. I turned and gazed into his eyes.

"I think you're a prick, and you are totally sick for doing it." He folded his arms in an angry gesture. "But I understand and you can't leave with out getting a bag of stuff. You also need to tell everyone, you're not getting away with just disappearing." He gave a weak smile. "Who's going to be my wrestling partner now?" I laughed slightly and nodded at his previous requests. I headed back towards the house, regretting what I was doing but also glad I was leaving them to do as they please.

"Ally you ok?" Emmett asked, facing her, my angel.

"HOW CAN I BE OK, EMMY, HE'S LEAVING ME! HOW WOULD YOU FEEL IF ROSE LEFT?" Her emotions came pouring out but I couldn't comfort her, it was no longer my job.

"I know. I'd be heartbroken but if anyone can make him stay it's you Ally." She gazed over my direction and shook her head.

"No, we've lost him." Emmett grabbed Alice's shoulders and gave her a shake.

"Don't give up Ally. You're soul mates. That's not something that just goes away."

"No but it is something you can destroy. Jasper just destroyed it. It's over." With that she ran into the forest and I glumly trudged into the house, ready to leave this chapter of my life behind.

Alice's Point of ViewThe unshed tears of a pixie.

I couldn't help but feel guilty. It was my fault; if I didn't throw that party I wouldn't be standing here in the pouring rain with a broken heart. He was leaving me. My Soul Mate. My Jasper. For the first time I wished I could cry, I wished I could die. I tried to look to the future, tried to see that it was going to be ok. But for the first time in my life I was blind. So I kept running, running blind.

I stopped in the middle of the forest. I closed my and chanted in my head "Come and find me, Jazz, please." but my dead heart knew he wasn't coming for me. He'd made up his mind. I dropped down onto the dirty floor, destroying my dress but I didn't care. I just lay myself down on the muddy floor. I closed my eyes waiting. Waiting for someone to grant my wish and kill me now.

"Jazz." I whispered his name. I waiting for my solider to come and get me. I'd stay here till he came for me. When time passed and he still didn't come I got angry and started ripping away the fabric of my dress. Tearing it with my strong hands. Now I was just left with the tatters of my dress and my life.

"ALICE?" I heard my name being called. But I knew it wasn't Jasper. I got up and ran. I just kept running.

"LEAVE ME ALONE!" I screamed as I ran. Emmett grabbed me. I tried to fight him off

"LET ME GO, EMMETT, NOW." I screamed.

"Alice, calm down, please." Emmett begged me pathetically. Esme all at once appeared next to him, unshed tears in her eyes.

"Ally, sweetheart, come home. Talk to Jasper. If anybody can make him stay it's you," Esme said with a sweet tone.

"Let me go, please. I just want to be alone," I said through dry sobs.

"Ok, Emmett, let her go." Esme said. Emmett let me go.

"Go back to the house, try and stall Jasper." Esme said giving Emmett a light push towards the house.

"Ok." Emmett said before he took off running leaving me and my mother alone.

"Come here, sweetheart," Esme said. She took me into her arms.

"I don't want him to go Esme. I love him. He's not a monster. But he thinks he's no longer the man I married. I can't see the future on this Esme, I'm blind." I said through even more dry sobs, hugging close to her seeking comfort.

"Go and talk to him, Ally. Show him that he's still your man." Esme said, kissing my head.

"What if it's too late?" I asked, fearing the answer.

"It's never too late, Ally." Esme said defiantly.

"I'll go back, just leave me alone for a minute, I need to think." I said with a small smile.

"Alright, sweetie, I'll see you back home." Esme said as she kissed my cheek. After that she took off running.

I stood there for a moment, closed my eyes, and remembered every moment that Jasper and I had shared. Soon after that I took off running, running back home as fast as I could, back to my Jazz. I just hoped I wasn't too late to save him.