If I wanted to be the bigger person I could lie and say that it will all be okay, that she will make it out okay. But I am not the bigger person. I am a feeble and weak individual who knows the risks I must take. If it was my life I would not hesitate but it wasn't my life, it was her life. Our life.
Did I hesitate, putting the only thing in this world that makes sense on the line?
No.
I wish I did. I wish it was me.
I took the risks and accomplished what? The suspect is dead and my partner… my lover… my everything is lying there on the cool concrete and all for what? It is all in vain.
The sirens begin to blare and my mind begins to dull.
The rain hits the concrete, mixing with the tears of a broken heart that was only given one goal in life. One saving grace, one chance to correct all the mistakes I have made. If the world is right in her eyes, then I can die a happy man.
But everything went wrong that fateful day.
It was not supposed to end like this.
It was only supposed to be an undercover op.
A two day sting. Just get in and get out. No one was to get hurt.
But someone did get hurt.
Her.
And in the process I have killed any chance I have at redemption.
She was my one chance at getting it right.
And now I am not much more than a failure.
I see them carry her away on the stretcher and find myself running after her. For I have always ran after her and I always will.
They try to push me out of the door, rambling on about not being family but I don't care. With one thrust I have broken through and find myself at her side.
Crimson stains both her and I. I push a few stray hairs off her face then focus on the big blue circles forming around her checks.
She looks so peaceful. Radiating striking but subtly beautiful. Perfection, the only form.
"I love you." I whisper lightly as I place my lips on her forehead.
I taste blood. Blood of a woman, who bore the heartbreak of a thousand souls, all slain in vain. Finding redemption for humanity in correcting the wrongs of a world gone so wrong.
She truly is an angel in human form.
Beep. Beep. Beeeeeep.
Silence.