Fourteen
DISCLAIMER: I OWN NOTHING EXCEPT WHAT I WRITE FROM PERSONAL EXPERIENCE THIS IS AN ALTERNATE UNIVERSE AND DOES NOT FOLLOW MANGA OR TV SERIES. It only involves the SCOUTS AND TUXEDO MASK no youmas. Sailormoon is own by Takeuchi Naoko.
Note: This story does contain female/female relationships……don't like, don't read.
CHAPTER 1: LETTING GO
Whether we want them we have them or not, mine are no different. Always I have these memories that I can't seem to forget no matter how hard I tried. All I ever feel afterwards is emptiness and so much sorrow that I too wish to no longer feel or have these memories at least. Unfortunately it's not going to happen not in this life time, the fates aren't kind enough to me. Thinking about it I don't really want to forget because it's the only way I'm able to remember you my love that I lost before I even had the chance to have it. I met you in August and I lost you in August and never seems to fail that fourteen isn't the number for me. I met you on the fourteenth and lost you when you were fourteen. I bet your starting to see why I say fourteen just isn't my number. I'm sure you've heard of how thirteen is unlucky; well that's how fourteen is for me. I am unable to let go of you so now I am unable to move on to the future with the new love that I've found which brings me to my problem………letting go.
I, Rei Hino at the age of being twenty-one have a problem I can't let go of anything not my first love and now the second one Usagi, I am about to lose you forever and I don't even know how. You said you loved me with all your heart and now you tell me you're not sure if you're even in love with me but you do love me. And at the same time you say the same thing to your Mamo-baka. I only need to know why, why now after all we've shared these past two years. Why now, what happened? When you told me this over the phone I thought for sure that I had died again and now I wonder why I didn't die with Hikari my first love. Everyday is a living hell for me now on the other side of the world away from you Usa-chan. They say that if you love someone enough to let them go and they return to you it's meant to be now we'll see if it's true or false. So now I'm back to my problem letting go. I guess the fate's will decide if we're meant to be together Usa. They decides for me and Hikari, so why should the second chance at love that I got with you be any different for me.