I want nothing.

I am death, rotting in this prison, the Prison of Elders; here be the cages of the immoral, the chains of the unlawful, the burden of the unfree.

I want death, having died a thousand times and will die a thousand more, in these ruthless fights and brawls that seem to begin and end at a never-ending pace.

This is a place of deathless death; the darkest and the evilest of this galaxy ripping and shredding and destroying each other, only to be reborn out of the penalty of this prison, the particles that make us unliving.

The years are uncounted; time is something of the nonexistent, just as the void; its absence draining us of our deaths, and me, of my power.

The longer I suffer life, the more distant my calling to the void is, and the less distant my call to the void is; only, the void doesn't exist here, just me.

I want nothing to exist.

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*Elsewhere in the Prison...*

Why did I agree to being restrained to this filth, this torture, this utter disrespect to what I am! I could destroy this prison and everything in it without a twitch of my finger! For what purpose do you see me to be kept from annihilating this wretched prison?

I made a promise, do you forget? I am restrained by that alone; not by these walls, not by these insurgents and enslaved, not by anything here but by the word I gave Her and Her alone; not the word to Zavala, not to the Speaker, not to any of the guardians but the word given to Her.

Surely she has taken the throne of the Awoken by now. She led the assault on the Fallen Wolves so our armies could repel the combined forces of the Fallen.

Do you not remember what happened there? I could have wiped the Fallen off of the face of the planet; I had the power to eliminate the Fallen species altogether! If it wasn't for Zavala and his damn bubble, I would have destroyed each and every one of them, from their measly dregs to their powerful Archons! I would have been the bane of the Fallen!

If it wasn't for Zavala, we would have destroyed all of the guardians as well. What Zavala did was necessary; I crossed the line and he did what was right to protect him, everyone, and me. He should be regarded with the utmost respect and admiration and I should take a lesson of nobility from him.

I should take a lesson of cowardice from him! He cost the lives of thousands because he wouldn't give me the order to advance on the Fallen, instead deciding that they should be given the idea that we were retreating and dwindling in numbers! Who needs numbers when you have me?

Zavala did what he needed to do for the city, its people and its protectors. I thought differently from him and so I paid the consequences. It's not a matter of hating Zavala but hating the power and control he has. But even still, should I hate him?

Zavala was never kind to me, but he was never kind to anyone. He expected duty and diligence and would respect you accordingly; if not, he would regard you coldly and nothing more. I never hated him and he never me. I would hate to imagine what he's doing to the vanguard though; all those new titans, influenced and manipulated to think that order and mercy are the best ways to utilize the light.

Ikora must be a remarkable vanguard. I taught her well; I taught her to think and the willingness and desire to learn, and she discovered her ability to learn it to others. I can think of no other warlock that would be capable to teach the new warlocks in the city how to best develop their light.

But what about the dark? She was the first to be trained from my findings; surely she has passed that knowledge along to more younglings. It is a powerful practice, the way of the void. As warlocks, we must not be afraid to shed away our light; as voidwalkers, we must not be afraid to gaze into the dark.

As the first, I must not be afraid to be the last.

But by no means was I the first to hold the light; I was simply the first to hold it in one hand, and the dark in the other.

Disclaimer: I do not own any of the characters, ideas or stories from Destiny, as they belong to Bungie and their wonderful writers.

Author's Note: Thank you for checking out the first chapter to my story! This story is going to be based off of my other short story "Azrael's Lament." Please review and give me feedback, as it gives me a sense of how urgently I need to pump out chapters for you guys!

Again, thanks for checking out my story and I hope you all enjoyed! Chapter 2 will be out soon!

-Renegader73095