Chapter 1

The sky was crying. That was what Castiel thought when he looked up. He had no idea what he was or who he was, or how had he gotten... wherever he was. All he knew was that the night sky was light up by thousands, maybe millions of stars, burning, falling. He looked at them, followed them, confused as to why was this making him feel so sad? Why did he felt as if this was horrible? The image was beautiful, but there was a knot in his stomach. He couldn't breathe... Tears started dripping on his face and he didn't even tried to stop them. He just stood there. Scared, alone ... So confused and so dizzy. A child lost in the dark.

The complete silence and stillness that followed when the lights stopped was overwhelming. He exhaled hard, shivering, looking at the ground. It was as if he had been holding his breath for the past few minutes without realizing. "What was that..? What am I doing here? Where do I go?" There were so many questions he had and no answers at all. But there was one thing he knew. One thing that kept ringing in his head. The only confident thought that he had in his mind, surrounded by uncertainties. One name...

"Dean..." He closed his eyes, focusing, trying to get a mental image, a memory, something, anything that could help him. But there was nothing. Just this one thought. This one name. "Dean Winchester... Who are you? Where are you?"

"Come on Sammy, get up."

Dean helped his brother get back to his feet, both of them still staring at the sky, even if the angels had stopped falling. The image had been so terrifying, so sad. Heaven literally falling apart. Dean had never liked angels all that much, but he had never wished for this either. Closing Heaven, leaving them all inside there, that was okay. But all the angels falling down to Earth wasn't. Especially not after Anna had explained them how horrible falling was. Especially not since Castiel was an angel too...

"We gotta find Cas." He announced, not even bothering to ask Sam's opinion about it, while he started walking to the Impala and opening the front door.

"Wait, Dean! What about him?" Sam pointed towards Crowley, who was still tight up to the chair.

Dean closed the door hard and started walking towards the demon, with Sam following him close behind. "We're taking him with us. But we keep him cuffed. We can't trust him."

The King of Hell stared at them both, looking both confused and tired. "Did Heaven really just broke apart?"

"Yes." Dean broke the Devil's Trap, starting to undo Crowley's leg cuffs right after, while Sam was removing the one around his neck. "And I don't want to hear any of your sassy, stupid remarks about it."

"You're worried for your boyfriend, aren't you?" Crowley asked, with a small smirk.

The older human punched him hard in the face, meaning him fall out of the chair. "I said shut up!"

"Dean..." Sam got closer to his brother, grabbing his arm with his hand to stop him from hitting the demon again.

But Dean pushed his brother away, not too roughly, but not all that gentle either. "I am alright. Now can we go already?"

"We don't even know where to start, Dean... I mean, do you even have any idea of where Cas might be?"

"No. Which is exactly why we should leave sooner."

"What, are we gonna search for him through all the 50 states?"

"Yes. That is exactly what we're gonna do. Now get in the car."

Sam left his head down, just staring at the floor for a small second, before going to help Crowley get up. He had seen Dean angry and worried before, but this was the first time his brother was this desperate. It was almost frightening. It was as if nothing else mattered to him anymore. They had not closed the gates of Hell. All the angels had fallen. Metatron was a traitor and possibly their new enemy. And they couldn't release Crowley without him most certainly trying to murder them. But they couldn't keep him forever either. Even so, even if they had all these problems, all Dean cared about was finding Castiel.

"Sensitive little boy, hey..." Crowley laughed.

Sam threw him an angry gaze, walking him to the car. "Dean's right, just shut up." He pushed him on the back seat and closed the door, before getting next to Dean in the car too. "What are we gonna do?"

"After we find Cas? I don't know, we'll figure something out." Dean rolled the keys, making the engine start, not even looking at his brother.

"Dean..."

"I don't wanna hear a thing, Sam. Whenever he's on his own, he does something stupid and all Hell breaks loose. Or Heaven. I am not having that anymore. Cas needs us. He can obviously not deal with anything when he's alone. Plus... He's human now."

Sam was silent for a moment. But then he just nodded and looked at his brother, his expression changing from upset and confused to understanding. "Okay... Let's find Cas."

Dean nodded back at him and started driving. 'You better not have forgotten me, Cas... You better still remember me, damn it. You fucking better!' Dean said in his mind, loudly, trying not to let any tears fall.

A/N: So it's a bit short but it is just the first chapter. There will be more soon. If I have to wait for season 9 I will end up losing my mind, so I need to write my own story to cope with this break. Hope you guys like it. Tell me what you think, please!