I know I'm not a good writer. I also know this story has probably been done, more or less. But I figured I needed at least one entry! It's ok if you don't like it or don't review, but it'd be totally sweet if ya did~
What do I do here? Tell you that I don't own Victorious.
-~Tori~-
I've never resorted to finding a friend online before. I have no problem making friends, that really isn't the problem here. What my problem is, is that I don't have any close girl friends that I can share my problems and secrets with.
There's Cat, of course, but who in their right mind would go to her with their problems? She's not all there when it comes to being a normal functioning teenager. She has the attention span of a 5 year ol- scratch that, everything to do with her resembles a 5 year old. I love her, but she's just not someone I can count on.
The only other girl in our close group of friends is Jade, and I don't think I even have to explain why that would never work. She has already trashed every attempt at becoming her friend so far that I've made. She hates my guts. We'll leave it at that.
There are girls that I am friendly with and even hang out with on occasion, but none of them I would consider a close enough friend to put my... world, for lack of a better word, out on the table for and be comfortable with it. And honestly, I'm not trying to find someone to just listen to my problems, I just want to have a close friend that knows everything about me enough to give me advice and to have fun with. Who knows if you can even find someone like that ONLINE, but I'm going to try.
I've seen the ads for it hundreds of times. They even have a TV commercial for it now. It plays in my head instantly. Log on to WWW DOT TEENSNEEDFRIENDS DOT COM to find a new best friend just like yourself in your area! It's simple and easy, and you'll have the chance to make more friends than ever before!Then of course it shows a bunch of kids talking about how they met their best friend ever and they'll never make it through life from now on without them.
Every time I saw the ad, I always thought how unsafe this has got to be. Couldn't any old pedophile log in claiming to be a teenager and try to meet up and rape them or kill them or something? But I guess you can call me desperate. I don't plan to meet up with anyone. I just want someone to e-mail or IM with. I get bored at home and Trina is intolerable.
I type in the web address and hit enter. It first has you log in, with the option to create an account if you don't have one already. After I've created a username and password, it gives me a warning telling me how unsafe it is to give out your full name, address and/or any personal information to internet strangers. If you plan to ever meet up, make sure it is in a very public crowded place with the accompany of an adult. I laugh to myself. It seems ironic to me that they try to make it seem like this can be completely safe. Regardless, there are other suckers like me who are so desperate to do this anyway. I click agree and move on.
Next it has me pick a category in which I'd like to be set up for a friend in. It's actually impressive, there's a category for just about everything. I decided to go with Animal Lovers just to test the waters. I'm not really too much of an Animal Lover but I just want to see how this works first. Then it has to option to pick a secondary category within that one to narrow it down, but you don't have to. I click cats because I guess I like cats. Lastly, it asks for a general area. You can make it a large span or a small span from specific area codes to time-zones. I decide to go with all of California and finally click the Find me a friend! button.
It takes about a minute and a little IM box comes up with the words Now speaking to DivaCat96...
DivaCat96: hey how r u?
LASuperstar: hey im good hbu?
DivaCat96: good. so what kind of cat do u have?
LASuperstar: um well actually i dont have a cat but i have a friend named cat
DivaCat96: ohh...
LASuperstar: how many cats do u have?
I'm sorry. DivaCat96 has disconnected your chat. Please wait while we find someone new...
How rude!
But honestly, that was lame. I guess I see how it works though, I'll go choose real interests. I exit from those chatbox before it connects me to another cat freak.
I pick Performing Arts Los Angeles. I don't pick a secondary category within that because I'm into most of it. If this doesn't go well, maybe I'll try narrowing it down. I wait until it connects me.
Now speaking to VampyricBeauty...
Great, it's probably a gothic sadistic freak like Jade. But that's unfair of me to judge, I'm sure they aren't all sadistic like her. Now that I think of it, I don't really know any other gothic type people.
LASuperstar: Hey VampyricBeauty, how's ur day so far?
VampyricBeauty: It's fine. I guess. I also guess I'm supposed to ask how your day is going as well. So?
LASuperstar: lol well its the polite thing to do. my day is also fine. what kind of performing arts are you into?
VampyricBeauty: Done with all the bullshit "polite introductions" I see. I like that, straight to the point. I'm sort of a triple threat. I act and sing, as well as write.
LASuperstar: me too. well i admire writers and have written a few songs and plays myself, i am mostly just an actor and singer. i think id rather sing than act if i had to choose.
VampyricBeauty: I would probably choose acting and screenwriting over singing.
LASuperstar: have u done anything professionally?
VampyricBeauty: Mostly school productions but I have been an extra in a movie once. I'm only 17, I'll get there. You'll see.
LASuperstar: no judging dont worry. i have been an extra and once a stunt woman but i dont think ill ever do that again. i hope you make it big!
VampyricBeauty: Thanks... you too, I suppose. Unless you ever try to go after the same role as me.
VampyricBeauty: Its weird, you remind me of someone.
LASuperstar: really, who?
VampyricBeauty: This girl from school. It's not really a good thing though. I know you could never really be her, and I'm not trying to be rude saying this. It's just that... nevermind. I'm sorry.
LASuperstar: its ok.
It's strange because she reminds me of someone too. She reminds me of Jade. But she's slightly more polite than Jade AND she said sorry. That right there means she could never be Jade. Plus, she'd never be on here trying to make a friend.
VampyricBeauty: so I told you I'm 17. How old are you?
LASuperstar: im 17 too
VampyricBeauty: I have stuff to go do. Talking to you wasn't so bad, do you want to add each other to our friend list's for future conversations?
LASuperstar: sure, ur the coolest person ive talked to so far.
Not that it'd be hard to be, considering I only talked to one other person and she didn't want to talk to me because I didn't have a pet cat.
I add her to my friends list and type bye. She says bye and signs off. I decide I've had enough and log off as well. I don't know if I'll ever even sign back onto this site. Maybe it was a stupid idea. I should just try to become closer friends with someone in real life at school. But something about that girl online makes me want to talk to her some more. I think it's because she reminds me of Jade, and I know Jade would never be my friend. Perhaps I could pretend she's Jade and see what it would be like to be friends with her. How pathetic is that?
And yes, I walk away from my computer laughing at myself.
So... this will probably be stupid. ;P
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