After a long gruelling day had just finished in the emergency department and the team had made their way over to The Hope & Anchor across the road for a well-deserved drink, a few rounds of shots later with Max & Jez at the bar I was buzzing and found myself eyeing up Ethan and his new girlfriend from afar. Alicia turned her head in my direction and ours eyes met briefly for a second and she smiled the most beautiful smile I'd seen in a long while but I looked away quickly before it got uncomfortable awkward.

They had just recently gotten together and were the talk of the ED, I was happy for my brother Ethan as one brother can be but hearing upon it constantly in cubicles had made be sick to the bone daily. I'd envied the relationship they had and longed for one meaningful of my own since my personal heartache with Taylor a few months ago.

Picking up one more shot glass from the top of the bar and downing it, my stomach had called it quits for the night after a long session. Out of nowhere Alicia had come up beside me to the bar

'Hey there Mr Casanova' she greeted. 'Have you been avoiding us tonight'

'Why would I be avoiding a pretty face like yours?'

'You tell me Cal, you seem a little bit distant tonight. Are you ok' she questioned, placing her hand on top of mine

My breath caught in my lungs by the delicate touch of her soft hand as I slowly breathed it out. 'I'm fine Alicia honest I am'

'Then come and have a drink with me and your brother'

'I was just about to head off' gesturing towards the door

'Come on please stay, one drink for me?' she smiled

'Just a quick one Alicia' I replied, the voice in my mind was telling me this was a bad idea and I should make some excuse to get out now while I had the chance too

After picking up a round of drinks for the three of us we joined Ethan at his table, flight had kicked in when I sat down as I knew being around them wasn't good by the way I was feeling. Just get through one drink with them together then you can get the hell out of here…..

'Caleb what's on your mind?' she asked

'Huh' I replied, totally dazed out

'See babe like I told you earlier, he has got something on his mind'

'Something or someone Caleb' Ethan teased

'Can we just leave it out ok, end of!'

'Have you been crushing on someone?' Alicia questioned, raising a brow

'God no, what are we kids now'

'It's someone in this room isn't it?' he joked

'On that note, I'll call it a night' I proclaimed, finishing off my pint

'So it is isn't it?'

I grabbed my jacket off the back of the chair and sifted my way through the packed crowd of the pub, slipping on my jacket outside I went to move away but got held back by something with some force, checking I wasn't caught on something I turned my head around to see Alicia grabbing hold of my arm

'You alright Cal'

'Yeah I'm fine Alicia; I shouldn't have lost my rag back in there. Totally out of order' I admitted. 'Anyway what are you doing out here?'

'It's understandable and I came to check if you were alright' she replied 'You coming back inside or really heading home for the night'

'Thanks anyway Alicia but I'll head home' I informed her, my heart stuttering slowing

'See you later Cal' she proclaimed, going up on her tiptoes and planting a soft kiss to my cheek

Alicia waved goodbye before heading back inside the pub and my stomach just flopped. This is wrong, so so wrong to be feeling like this at all, especially for my brother's girlfriend when they had just gotten together. I can't be feeling like this, I shouldn't be but the way she touched me tonight and kissed my cheek felt so right and real that I should have told her how I felt about her but not now when it's too late, I needed to nip these feelings about Alicia in the bud and move on somehow. My eyes shifted to the right as I eyed up the blonde with the beautiful smile, this was the right thing to do to get Alicia out of my system…..