You were lying in bed one night. You were very uneasy, and had an unsettling feeling in your stomach. You knew you weren't going to be able to get to sleep anytime soon.
"Hey, (y/n)… What's the matter…?" Your partner of almost four years, Corporal Levi Ackerman asked you. You shook your head, as if it weren't that big a deal.
"Ah, its nothing." You said flatly.
"Now (y/n), I know you better than that. Whenever you're worried about something you don't sleep. Now what's the matter?" He persisted. "Is it because of the expedition tomorrow?" He asked you.
The only expeditions you have ever been worried about were your first five. After that you didn't mind them. Expeditions didn't scare you anymore. Commander Erwin could announce an expedition on some random day that nobody had any idea about and you could care less. It wasn't a big deal to you.
"No. You know I don't get nervous about those things, Levi." You said sitting up, wincing a little from a slight cramp in your stomach. His eyebrows furrowed.
"Then why are you all worried?" He asked.
"I'm not worried. Is it illegal to lay awake at night, to imagine perfect scenarios about life? Because if it was, most people would be in jail." You said. Levi smirked.
"Well, I don't think tonight is an appropriate night to be fantasizing. I don't want you to faint or something outside the walls because you didn't get enough sleep." He told you. You rolled your eyes at his statement.
"Whatever. Goodnight, loser." You said playfully, and turned on your side, pulling the blanket with you. Levi chuckled.
"Goodnight, (y/n)." Levi said. He climbed deeper into the blanket next to you and threw his arm over your waste, his hand landing on the area of your stomach below your belly button. You opened your eyes and frowned a bit, but then you decided that you had to let it go. You closed your eyes gently and let your eyes moisten. You decided that it wasn't important until the expedition is over. You chuckled at an almost inaudible volume.
"What?" Levi asked.
"Oh, nothing…" You said, chuckling once more. You felt excitement, and a sudden want for the expedition to be over.
Less than fifteen hours later, you were on horseback in your green poncho that sported the Wings of Freedom, about to go outside of Wall Maria. You were in front of Hange, and laughing about how much she was getting on Levi's nerves.
"Oh my gosh! Words cannot describe how much I can't wait for this! Oh how cool would it be if we see an aberrant?! Oh Levi, you have to help me catch one!" Hange chimed.
"I am not going to assist you with such a hassle, four eyes." Levi said bluntly. Hange scowled. You giggled quietly, bringing your fingers up to your mouth to muffle the sound. Hange turned around quickly.
"How about you, (y/n)? You can help me capture an abnormal right?" She asked happily. You didn't really want to help her, but you wanted to be kinder than Levi. Unlike him, you liked Hange, and you wanted to be nice to her.
"Uh, no thank you…" You said meekly. Levi looked back at you with a look that screamed "What. On. Earth. Was. That." You smiled slightly and shrugged in response. He cocked an eyebrow at you and turned back around. You wondered how you even got through to Levi. You were always quiet and shy when you were around a lot of people. You used to be downright silent, rarely talking at all. But you eventually grew out of that and started talking.
Eventually you heard the loud, booming voice of Commander Erwin.
"Thirty seconds until gates are opening!" He yelled. You began squirming around, shaking your legs mildly. It always felt like the thirty seconds before we start last for hours.
"Three!" You stood up straight.
"Two!" You grabbed the reigns.
"One!"
"Hyah! Come on, Lilith!" You yelled, slapping the horse's skin lightly with the reigns. She bucked, and proceeded to run out of the gates with the rest of the Scouts. You took a deep breath as you made your way outside the wall. The air was fresher, and a lot less cloudy than the air inside the walls. This is why to an extent you liked expeditions. It smelled a lot better outside, that, and you just felt so free, like a huge weight was lifted off your shoulders, like you could jump really high or fly. The sun was brighter, and it's like you weighed less. It just felt right, amazing. Sometimes you wished that you could ditch the whole scene, and just live outside the wall, and live off the land like a scavenger. You could avoid the titans easily. You were light on your feet and quite agile. You have thought about doing it several times but you know it would never happen. It was just another perfect scenario you created before bed one night.
You were enjoying the scenery, enjoying the quiet. But you do know that the quiet was only going to last a short time, as it always happened before a titan appeared. You sighed, hoping that the bliss would last just a little while longer. You hoped that this expedition would be short. You hoped that you would return behind the walls in a matter of a couple hours. You were getting quite impatient, and just wanted this to be over with already. Even though you were a part of the front lines, there were some times that you were just incredibly lazy. This was one of those times. But you just have to get over it and suck it up.
You and the other Scouts were riding into the outside pretty slowly, and you were just going along with the flow so far. Just then an alert Levi had caught up next to you. You didn't even have any idea that you had gotten ahead of him. You really need to start paying attention more.
"Someone's being awfully quiet today." He said, catching your attention.
"Oh…. yeah." You said, having a lack of better things to say. You didn't even look over at him.
"Hey." He said coarsely. He brought his pale hand over and brushed the (h/c) locks out of your face. You looked at him with a bored face. He looked a little worried.
"Okay (y/n), spill it. What is up." He said. More like he demanded. You were being a little more distant than usual. You shrugged.
"Nothings up. Why?" You said quietly.
"What's up is that it's been thirty minutes since we've been outside the wall and you haven't said a word. What is up?" He said sternly. You didn't want to tell him so you simply shrugged.
"I assure you Levi, I am fine. I'm just tired…. That's it. I didn't get a lot of sleep last night remember? That's probably all. You said.
"Tch." He said. You guessed that he just gave up on trying to get it out of you. He remained beside you.
"It's strange… It's been over half an hour and we still haven't seen any titans yet." He said.
"Maybe they're all next to each other in somewhere specific." You suggested.
"Maybe… but what would be going on there to attract a bunch of titans? We have never gone this long on an expedition without seeing one." Levi said. He was a bit confused. You honestly didn't really care that no titans were spotted yet. Secretly you were a little ecstatic. You shrugged.
"Well, maybe we should just enjoy the quiet for a while. Just enjoy the time that we are spending outside the walls without being slaughtered. You shouldn't get so worked up over it." You said. His eyebrows furrowed.
"Tch." When he made that noise it pissed you off a bit. You sighed, giving up.
If anyone, he should be glad. No titans means there isn't any titan blood all over the place once someone kills them. You thought, chuckling to yourself. You always thought his whole cleaning thing was funny. When someone gave him an attitude, all he did was make him or her clean something. It was a pretty good weapon. But on the downside however, as you have been involved with him your cleanliness standards have been raised pretty high, so you were kind of a clean freak too.
Suddenly your entire squad hears a loud noise. You look into the air.
"Red flare! A titan has been spotted!" Petra, another girl in the squad, had shouted.
"Finally!" You heard Levi mutter under his breath.
"Pft." You said. Levi didn't hear you though. He was too busy directing the squad where to go. Suddenly, the titan that was spotted had made its way over to where your squad was.
How on earth did it get here so fast? The flare came from way over there… You thought. The titan stopped right in front of you. All of a sudden you couldn't move, and it was almost as if you were having a staring contest with the titan.
You couldn't move, and you couldn't breathe. You almost wanted to cry.
Oh.
He then picked you up with an iron grip on you, crushing a few of your ribs and squeezing all of the air out of your lungs. You couldn't breath at all. You still didn't move.
O h.
Just as you closed your eyes, accepting your inevitable death, you heard the titan holding you roar. It was so loud and so high pitched it was almost like it was screaming. Your eyes snapped open.
The titan was wobbling, and you saw Levi on the titans neck, with his blade covered in salty, crimson blood. He quickly used his 3DMG and swooped in, and slicing the titans fingers off, freeing you of his grasp. Once you both reached the ground he laid you down, examining your injuries. You were so tired. Either tired or in shock. Air returning to your lungs, your eyes started to droop. Levi, not sure if you were passing out or dying, was yelling to try and keep you awake.
"(y/n)! (y/n) stay with me….. " Was all you heard before blacking out.
You woke up in a white room. The light wasn't very bright.
Am I in the in the infirmary? What happened to the expedition? You thought. You sat up, and felt a sharp pain in your torso area. You looked down and saw that your torso was heavily bandaged.
What happened to me? I can't remember…
You looked under the bandages and saw that your torso was bruised. Your mouth was open in complete awe and confusion as you tried to remember what happened at the expedition.
No… I never get injured at these things…
You leaned back, experiencing a nauseating cramp in your stomach as well as the pain in your torso. You wished someone were here to explain to you what happened before you blacked out. Just then, as if the gods were reading your mind, Levi walked through the door.
"Thank God you're here!" You said as loud as you could, being in all that pain.
"Thank God you're awake!" He said, embracing you in a hug and kissing your lips tenderly.
"What exactly happened on the expedition? I never get hurt on expeditions." You asked him.
"The first titan that was spotted took an unexpected path towards us. He picked you up and was about to devour you; luckily I killed him just in time. If I hadn't, I wouldn't be able to live with myself." He said, embracing you tightly. The pain in your torso returned with his embrace.
"Uhm, Levi," You said. He loosened up immediately.
"Oh, right." He said, rubbing the back of his neck.
You had run out of words to say. Part of you really wanted to tell him what was going on with you, but another part wanted to wait until later tonight or possibly tomorrow, once you've gotten a little more rest and the whole trauma of the expedition blows over. Instead, you said something else.
"When happened with the rest of the expedition? Why are you back so early?" You asked him.
"Well, after I killed the titan that hurt you and we applied immediate first aid, we didn't see any other titans, and we stayed out there for at least two and a half hours." He said.
"And you didn't even see /one/ titan?" You asked, dumbfounded.
"Nope. So Erwin just decided to call it all off. Nobody was killed or injured, except for you." He said. That made you feel like an idiot. You, the one person that usually comes out of those expeditions without a scratch on you, was the only person who was injured today. You felt your face heat up at the embarrassment. Levi saw this and sat next to you on your bed, and wrapped his arm around you gently.
"Its okay… You're okay, the doctor says that your bones are going to knit back together in a period of a couple weeks. You should be back to normal then." He said, arms around you. He kissed your forehead.
Just then you got another nauseating cramp in your stomach. This time it was more intense than the first one. It caused your throat to open up, and the taste of iron ran through your mouth, confirming that you were about to vomit. You clutched your hand to your stomach.
"(y/n)… are you alright? Do I need to get the doctor back…?" He asked. You shook your head, looking at the trashcan in front of you.
"No, I'm fine…" You said. You belched a little in your mouth. It tasted like metal.
"Are you sure?" He asked.
"Yeah I'm su-" You started. But then you couldn't hold the vomit in you any longer. You stood up, leaned over the trashcan and threw up. Levi rushed to your side quickly with a panicky look on his face.
"(y/n), you obviously aren't okay. You must be sick." He said, rubbing your back, comforting you.
You were still leaned over the trashcan, hands on the rims. You were scared. Scared mainly because you didn't want to tell anyone yet. But, I guess you'd have to do it sooner or later.
"Hey! (y/n)! Can you hear me?" Levi asked, snapping his fingers in your face. You nodded, and your lip quivered.
"Uhm, Levi, can I talk to you?" You asked him quietly.
"Of course, (y/n)." He responded, sitting back on the bed. You sat down next to him and he wrapped one arm around your shoulder as you prepared yourself.
"Uhm well, you see, this is really complicated and stuff, and I was gonna tell you earlier but we had the expedition and stuff and-" Levi cut you off.
"Cut to the chase." He said simply. You couldn't hold it in you anymore when he said that. Like a dam with cracks simply waiting to break.
"Levi, I'm pregnant."
Hey guys! I hope you liked chapter one of my new story, A Lost Cause! This is going to be my seventh story on Wattpad, and my first story on both deviantArt and J
Yeah I don't really know how having a child is going to work out in the Survey Corps, but I have the whole rest of the plot planned out and I think its going to be a really good story so you'll just have to wait and see!
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