Look At Me
by Anne
Sometimes I dream about the past. When you and I and Kotori were playing at Togakushi shrine. When all I wanted was to see your smiling face. I wake from those dreams with a familiar aching knot in my chest.
Sometimes I dream about the present. I dream about pinning you to the wall. I dream about trapping you in my embrace. In my dreams, I go further than I dare to in reality. I wake from them with a sticky wetness in my boxers.
Sometimes I dream about holding your limp body in my arms, a sword in your heart. This is the future. From this dream, I just wake. It is the end. There are no more emotions.
But never, in all my dreams, do I dream about you smiling at me with the same love I have for you. I never dream about you returning my embrace. Never dream about you surrendering willingly to my kisses. I've never had that hope to begin with.
You've always looked through me, Kamui. Before, there was always Kotori. Now it's the memory of your friend - the friend that never really existed the way you thought he did. Because I've been hiding something from you the entire time.
Even now, you don't realize, Kamui. I wish you'd just look at me once. I'm tired of being lonely, Kamui.
by Anne
Warnings: Shonen Ai
I've been dreaming about you again. I always dream about you.Sometimes I dream about the past. When you and I and Kotori were playing at Togakushi shrine. When all I wanted was to see your smiling face. I wake from those dreams with a familiar aching knot in my chest.
Sometimes I dream about the present. I dream about pinning you to the wall. I dream about trapping you in my embrace. In my dreams, I go further than I dare to in reality. I wake from them with a sticky wetness in my boxers.
Sometimes I dream about holding your limp body in my arms, a sword in your heart. This is the future. From this dream, I just wake. It is the end. There are no more emotions.
But never, in all my dreams, do I dream about you smiling at me with the same love I have for you. I never dream about you returning my embrace. Never dream about you surrendering willingly to my kisses. I've never had that hope to begin with.
You've always looked through me, Kamui. Before, there was always Kotori. Now it's the memory of your friend - the friend that never really existed the way you thought he did. Because I've been hiding something from you the entire time.
Even now, you don't realize, Kamui. I wish you'd just look at me once. I'm tired of being lonely, Kamui.
C&C, anyone?