My Happy Ending

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Chapter 1: Hazel Eyes

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It was dark outside.. thunder clouds coming overhead, a streak of white lightning lit up the sky, the rain pelted down, like the sky was crying, I sat there alone in the dorm, the emptiness in my mind, a void in my hart, there was nothing I could do to solve it.

Me, Lily Evans, never used to feel like this, I used to feel like there was something to live for, but somehow the darkness and my fears over came my own happiness. I don't know exactly how or even when it happened, but all I know it that I secluded my self from the outside world. And that is how I want it to stay.

I am pretty popular, I don't exactly know how I got like that, no clue at all, I know that I shouldn't be, I have no real friends, it is all superficial, all fake. I guess the only reason why I am popular it because of the way I look, I don't look good, but somehow I people think I do, but It doesn't go to my head I really don't even care.

Some people thrive on the attention from people but me, I thrive on the darkness, I live the thoughts of my own existence, I don't care for anyone but the emptiness that consumes me, the nothingness that I feel.

Most people I have herd thinks that I am kind, sweet, I guess that is true but I don't care, all I do is make polite conversation, just give then what they want a smile here a hi there. Nothing serious, nothing real. I closest thing I have to a friend is Remus Lupin, the only one who has thought enough about me to actually care, to get to know the real me, or the realist me I can deal with. He was and to this day the only one who cares. Who tried to be my friend.

I am grateful for him, he shows me in our short the conversations that I have with him that he does care that he wants to know me, I guess in a way gives me hope. But some people like his friends, just get higher on the popularity ladder for being seen with me. Fine whatever, I am used to it by now.

There are laughing and the pattering of feet and in come my four dorm mates, oh great, now I have to pretend to give a crap about them, pretend to be their friend.

"Lily!" Oh it was Jade, out of all the girls in our year she was the closest one to whom I could relate with. Pretty yes, popular yes, nice most of the time, but she had her own world and I have mine, she had her parties her dances and I had drawing and running, she loved attention, and I well don't.

"Oh hello, what are you doing back up here Jade? I thought there has a party in the common room 4th years and up?" I say sweetly I can go from total solitude to the fakest cheerful act if it meant showing my weakness, my hurt.

"Well, you see from the state of my robes that Mr. Black dumped punch on me.. but what are you going to do?" She says as she stares to get undressed and into another set of robes.

"Yeah... what." I say as I start to look out of the window again, start to consume myself more in the thoughts that I have hanging over my head. There was suddenly something that poisoned me that entered my body, it was hard to explain. Without a word I left the room.

Downstairs there was the usual crowed around Potter and Black. The blonde skinny ones... the popular ones. But as I entered that room, the venom of the poisen that I felt engulfed me, I could not breath and everything started to spin. I shot a glance at the one place that I know would pay attention. His hazel eyes met mine as I came crashing to the ground. A murmur is herd and I am gone.

I wake up in a cold sweat to find that I am asleep by the window, every one is asleep, "It was a dream..." I tell myself, but I think who has those hazel eyes that have been haunting me... who is poisoning my thoughts, who have I turned to? I cant think of any one who has such beautiful eyes, who makes me feel like this and I am scared. It is dark out still but I am awake.

I go down to the common room and feel the hart beating and a swiftly pass James potter asleep on the couch with some blonde... I think 5th year Ravenclaw, if I am correct. How pitiful, James is pitiful. But all of a sudden a hear a grumble and I feel poisoned again, but why. I collect my thoughts and leave and go to the only place where is can find solitude the library.

I go to the back wall and I think to myself of all the pain and devastation my thoughts bring me, but then I realize they are the only ones who care. I hear someone enter and there they are the Hazel Eyes...

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A/N: This chapter was short i know but the next one is going to be longer.

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