I can't feel anything. For as long as I can remember, I've never been able to feel emotions. I pretend to be normal when I'm around other people, but on the inside, I feel nothing. It's not as bad as it may sound. I know that I'm broken, but I don't care. This is normal for me.
But everything changed when I met him... my Senpai. For the first time, I felt something. A strong desire. A longing. A yearning. A craving. Now I finally understand what it means to be human. To be alive. I'm addicted to the way he makes me feel. I don't care about anything else. He is everything to me. And now, someone is trying to take him from me.
She wants him, but not in the same way that I want him. She could never appreciate him the way I do. She doesn't deserve him. He belongs to me alone. She has taught me a new emotion... Rage. I want to stop her. I want to hurt her. I want to kill her. There is nothing I won't do for Senpai. I won't let anyone come between us. I won't let anyone take him from me. Nothing else matters. No one else matters. Senpai. Will. Be. Mine. ...He doesn't have a choice
Days and months merged together before. I didn't care whether I lived or died. I didn't care that I didn't care. But now I have reason and I can't let that be taken away from me.
That boy... That upperclassman. He wakes at 6:30 every morning. He eats breakfast (toast, usually with his younger sister). Then he... showers. Cleans himself. The water droplets on his smooth skin, washing away the smells and sweat built up throughout the night. My fingers dancing along his chest, his hip bones, his collarbones. His breath on my neck. Hands fondling. My fingers. They move up and up, up to his neck, slowly and carefully pinching, turning into a squeeze, his eyes popping.
He gets his uniform on, grabs his bag and leave for school with...
Osana Najimi.
We can't let that continue now, can we?