AUTHORS NOTE: I'm back with a new story. I may return to The Future is Ours someday no promises but I'm just not feeling it right now. Trust me you don't want me forcing myself to write it would majorly suck. Anyway hope you enjoy this new story.

The people from the Ark slowly trudged their way through the gates of Camp Jaha. They were all bloodied and tired. Their people were free from Mount Weather and the mountain men would never again threaten anyone. Maybe now that the war was over their people could finally begin to build a real life on the ground.

Just past the tree line overlooking the camp stood Clarke Griffin. She allowed herself a small smile at seeing her people safe. There had been a few losses but mostly everyone was saved but at such a cost. She should feel happy, relieved but all she could see were the bodies. Some guilty mostly innocent. She had killed children and while she knew she had no choice the guilt and horror of her actions weighed heavily upon her.

Just ahead of her Bellamy Blake turned around and saw Clarke stopped at the trees. He walked back towards her. "Clarke? Our people are waiting. I'm sure they'll want to celebrate. You saved us again."

Clarke glanced back at camp with tears in her eyes before looking back at Bellamy. "I can't go back. Seeing them everyday knowing what I had to do to get them here. It would feel like being locked up all over again. I'd suffocate."

Bellamy reached for her hands. "You did what you had to. No one can fault you for that. If you need forgiveness I can give you that."

Clarke shook her head. "I did what I had to just like when I burned 300 grounders alive, just like when I slid a knife into Finn's heart, just like when I let a bomb drop on Tondici to protect you. There were children in there and I pulled a lever and killed them. I'm tired of doing what I had to do. I lose more of my soul each time until soon there won't be anything of me left."

"We need you Clarke."

"No you don't not like this. "

Bellamy looked at her for a moment before sighing in resignation. He knew there was no changing Clarke's mind once it was set on something. "Where will you go?"

Clarke shrugged. "I don't know."

"Will you ever come back?"

"Maybe someday."

Bellamy hugged Clarke close. "Take care of yourself. You're better than all of us combined."

Clarke nodded against his shoulder before pulling back. "Take care of them for me."

Bellamy nodded and Clarke started to walk away before turning back. "We need the alliance still."

"The grounders left us to die why should we try to get along with them now?"

"Our people can't fight another war. The grounders did what they had to in order to save their people same as us. They know how to survive down here and I'm sure our technology would benefit them. We all need peace. I need there to be peace otherwise all the deaths, all the blood on my hands was for nothing."

"Okay. I promise I'll do my best to make that happen."

"That's all I can ask." She cast a long look back at camp trying to memorize her people alive and safe." May we meet again."

"May we meet again." Bellamy watched with a sad heart as Clarke disappeared into the trees. "see ya princess." He hoped Clarke would find the inner peace she deserved and return to them one day.

He walked through the gates and was greeted by Octavia who immediately noticed the tears in his eyes. " Bell?" She looked behind him seeing no sign of Clarke. "Where's Clarke?"

Bellamy swallowed. " She's gone."

"What do you mean gone? She was right behind you."

"She left. Said she couldn't stay knowing what she had to do to get us here."

Octavia pulled Bellamy into a tight hug. "She'll be alright. Clarke's stronger than anybody I know." Bellamy nodded. "You know Abby is going to skin you alive when she finds out you let Clarke leave right?"

Back in Tondici a scout raced towards the Commander's tent. He was granted immediate entry. He found his Commander pacing in her tent while generals Indra and Anya stood calmly by the throne.

The commander stopped pacing as soon as she noticed the scout. "Arn what news from the mountain."

"The sky people are free. The mountain men are dead."

"Dead? all of them."

"Sha Heda. I went inside all lay burned and dead. The men, the women, the children."

Lexa swallowed having a good idea of how such a thing happened and who was responsible for it. "What of Clarke of the sky people? Does she still draw breath?"

"Sha heda but..." Arn trailed off well aware of his Commanders volatile temper.

"But what speak now or I will ensure you never speak again."

"She followed her people back to their camp but did not go in with them. She only had a small pack and a skaikru weapon with her."

"You may leave Arn. Tell Freya to take up post around Camp Jaha. I need to know if they plan revenge on us."

Arn bowed before exiting the tent. As soon as he was gone the Commander turned to her two generals. "Leave me."

Indra obeyed without question but Anya hesitated. "Lexa"

"Do you disobey your Commander. I said leave me." Anya sighed and quickly left the tent.

Once she had Lexa took off her shoulder armor and threw it across the tent before collapsing on her throne. The burden of being Heda had never weighed more heavily on her than now. She had left Clarke alone when she had needed Lexa the most. Because of that Clarke was forced to do something she would probably never forgive herself for. She had tried to spare Clarke learning all the harsh lessons of being a leader in this world but instead she had destroyed her. Now Clarke had left the safety of Camp Jaha and was wondering the woods alone. Once again Lexa was going to be responsible for the death of the girl she loved.

AUTHORS NOTE 2: Yay! Anyas alive because I want her to be and I because I think Lexa needs one person she can confide in as Lexa not the Commander.