This is what happens when I baby sit late at night. A letter from Emily to Kazu.
Disclaimer: It so isn't mine.
Obsession is Such an Ugly Word
Dear Kazu,
Is it enough yet to say that I tried yet? When you were in need of an extra body for the team, did I not step up no matter my skill level was at the time? I was you first fan. I was your biggest one too. Why have you left me to ponder my thoughts alone?
You are too damn wrapped up in the world of ATs to even notice me. Obsessed like Ikki but maybe not as much or possibly even more. I've seen you practice as if there is no tomorrow. You have never been more dedicated to anything else. To think it's all to beat your best friend and rival; Itsuki.
That night when you showed me the moon made me think that there might actually be something more between us. Even that date. Or did you only agree out of pity? Poor Emily, she can't get a single date. She's just a butch lesbian with that Yayoi.
I like… no I love you and I hate it. No… I love it. It tears me up, makes me lose sleep. To you I am probably just another girl in love with the tricks and the skills and not the person. That isn't true! It never has been! Don't you know that? Can't you see that? Can you not feel it?
If only you could. You would feel how fast my heart beats in the presence of you. Or the way my stomach flops when your ice-blue eyes meet my dull brown ones. Sometimes I like to pretend those smiles are just for me, and only me.
Darling, you should be mine.
Sincerely,
Emily.
Soo, Do what you wanna do.
-Self Pity Party