Why…
Why am I afraid to be happy?
I love you all…
But don't get too close.
If you do then I will close up.
Why am I afraid to love?
Don't come any closer…
The water is too deep!
I don't want you to drown!
It hurts to love…
It hurts to live…
If you could call this living!
I'm drowning…
In the deepest abyss…
Holding onto one last breathe!
Don't follow me!
Don't drown with me!
Live!
My life was over before it began!
I promised you all…
I wouldn't hurt myself, and I wont!
At least not physically.
My eyes fill with tears,
Every night I cry!
You tell me things that make me smile,
Even though it hurts!
You make me happy, even when I'm scared!
I'm in over my head!
You all were my angels,
In my time of need!
You tried, and are still trying,
Trying to save me!
Am I really that deep?
Or am I drowning in shallow water?
I want to love,
To live, to be happy,
But I'm afraid!
Afraid of what's to come!
You are all my life!
And I don't want you to die!
You are all angels!
Sent to save me?
Why am I so special?
You all deserve much better,
But you accept me for me!
You all put my broken heart together,
You all freed my soul!
You saved me,
From dark temptations!
So don't drown,
Just to save me,
Instead, as I hold my last breathe,
Watch me fight,
Fight the devil that holds me down!
Love me for me!
Soon you'll get close,
And I won't be afraid anymore!
Cause you all taught me to live!
And I love you all for that!
Thank you!
Thank you all for your help!
My angels in disguise…