Ohh angst akuroku story be afraid be very afraid. Suicide for Axel just doesn't have the right pizazz as Sasori's does. Anyway have fun. Warning- you miight need a tissue. Small might. anyway enjoy! Love you guys!
"No one would miss me." I watched Roxas say coldly.
"That's not true!!!" I yelled. Roxas continued walking. "I would." I said silently, making sure Roxas didn't hear those last too silent words as I watched him slowly walk out of my grasp. Leaving…. Forever.
"Roxas!!!" I yelled as loud as I could. Roxas stopped walking, but he didn't turn around.
"Where are you going?! Do you want them to kill you!?!?! I can only cover up for you for so long! I-I'd never be able to live with myself if they caught you because of me. You can't go..." I said, choking on my own words.
"It won't be your fault. I know all the consequences that come with doing this." Roxas said using his newly obtained monotone.
On top of the roof
The air is so cold and so calm
I say your name in silence
You don't wanna hear it right now
The eyes of the city
Are counting the tears falling down
Each one a promise
Of everything you never found
"So you're gonna kill yourself!?!" I yelled back.
"No. I'll just make sure I'm not caught."
I looked at the ground for a few seconds before returning my gaze back to Roxas.
"What the hell's wrong with you!?! You cant just assume that leaving the organization is that easy! They're gonna kill you if they find you Roxas, and they will!!!" I yelled loudly back at him not caring if anyone heard my screams and yells.
"Shut up and stop pretending you care, you have no heart, it shouldn't matter to you you're not throwing away your life." Roxas growled and walked out of my sight.
"Roxas..." I whispered. Snow began slowly falling down from the sky, each one reminding me of Roxas as they softly fell to the ground, coating it with cold white fluff.
I scream into the night for you
Don't make it true
Don't jump
The lights will not guide you through
They're deceiving you
Don't jump
Don't let memories go
Of me and you
The world is down there out of view
Please don't jump
I closed my eyes feeling a burning sensation in the back of my throat…. Was I… was I feeling something?
"Roxas Roxas Roxas Roxas..." I repeated to myself, hoping my silent pleas would bring him back. Something inside me knew it wouldn't but I wanted him back too much to listen to the voice of reason inside me.
You open your eyes
But you can't remember what for
The snow falls quietly
You just can't feel it no more
Somewhere out there
You lost yourself in your pain
You dream of the end
To start all over again
I turned around, my boots softly crunching in the newly fallen snow. Walking back to the castle that never was I thought about all the things that could happen to Roxas. Each one more gruesome than the one before. But… No matter how gruesome it was there was always something in common between them all, I caused it, I made them find Roxas, I was the reason he died.
"If I didn't exist... Roxas's chances on living double…" I said to myself.
No matter how much I didn't want to do it, I had to save Roxas. I had to destroy myself in order for him to live. Both of us couldn't live at the same time without the other perishing.
"I'll take the chances..." I said to myself as the castle that never was came into view.
I scream into the night for you
Don't make it true
Don't jump
The lights will not guide you through
They're deceiving you
Don't jump
Don't let memories go
Of me and you
The world is down there out of view
Please don't jump
Don't jump
I walked inside the castle, and was greeted by Xigbar with the biggest shit eating grin ever.
"Busted." He said simply.
"Axel." I looked up and saw saix with his normal stone like facial expression. "You and number 13 we're both gone, not a surprise of course but what did surprise me was that you came back alone. Tell me, where's number 13?"
I don't know how long
I can hold you so strong
I don't know how long
"Dunno. I wasn't with him. Weird we we're gone at the same time isn't it?" I asked inwardly surprised by how monotone my voice was.
"Indeed." He said. Saix looked at me with an expression showing me he didn't believe me but that he was going to let it slide for a while.
I basically ran to my room once saix left me alone. I needed to do it. And fast, before my brain talked sense into me.
'Come on axel, think!' I thought to myself, How does a nobody kill themselves, no heart no veins, no death by cutting. I suppose blowing ones brains out would be effective but I'd never get a gun from Xigbar without question.
Just take my hand
Give it a chance
don't jump
Than it hit me. Jumping. The castle was certainly big enough, and I hate every one of the members left so it'd serve them right to clean me off the concrete with something.
Running up about ten thousand stairs I made it to the roof of the castle that never was.
"Roxas... You're lucky that I care about you this much." I said to myself as I stood on the edge of the roof.
I scream into the night for you
Don't make it true
Don't jump
The lights will not guide you through
They're deceiving you
Don't jump
Don't let memories go
Of me and you
The world is down there out of view
Please don't jump
Don't jump
And if all that can't hold you back
I'll jump for you
"I never told you but…" I sighed deeply. "Roxas, I love you." I said to no one again, confessing my love to no one.
With one last movement I jumped off the roof closing my eyes, making sure the last thing that went through my head was Roxas.