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Takes Place After 4th NewWho Finale In Rose's POV
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I held the human Doctor in my arms, pulled him in for a kiss. His lips felt the same against mine; I still fit perfectly into his arms. Would it really be the same, though? Would being with this man is exactly like the man I loved and still love, knowing he is only half the heart of my true love, be alright? I couldn't help but feel incredibly selfish- this man was giving up the rest of his time to make me, a girl he didn't really know, happy. Sure, he had all the memories and maybe he felt what the Doctor felt, but he wasn't there when I met the Ood. He wasn't the Doctor I was with when I was forced into this dimension.
By the time the bittersweet kiss ended, my Doctor was gone.
Never again... never again would I see him. Instead, I had the ghost of the man I used to know stuck here with me for the rest of my life. And he was offering me what I had always wanted with the Doctor- to settle down and have a family. The difference between him and the Doctor was subtle, but it was there. However, he knows what the Doctor knew of me; everything. And he's offering me his hand.
His fingertips softly brushed away the tears I didn't know I'd cried as I stared longingly at the spot where the TARDIS had been. It had vanished, along with any hope of seeing my beloved Doctor again. How was I to know if he was alright? What if he lost his TARDIS again? What if he never found someone to go on the journey with him? He needed someone to hold his hand. How could I know if someone was there?
I couldn't. I'd just have to accept that.
"Doctor?" My voice shakily asked as he wrapped his arms around me from behind.
"Yes, Rose?" His voice was just as soft as mine.
"You aren't going to fall in love with someone else, are you? Because I've already lost the other Doctor thrice. I don't think I'd be able to handle losing you, even if I know you aren't him," I said as he turned me towards him. His eyes shone down with me, willing me to feel better. Admittedly, it was working.
"I'm not going anywhere, Rose Tyler," he whispered, looking straight into my soul.
"And you're okay with this, Doctor? You really do love me?"
"Yes, Rose. I love you- never ever forget that," he kissed my forehead and hugged me.
I sighed into his shoulder. I couldn't make myself forget that this wasn't the real Doctor; I couldn't think of them as one in the same. It wasn't fair to either of them to think of these two men as as one and the same just because they had the same memories and because they looked the same. For now.
How would I know if the Doctor regenerated?
Tomorrow he could look different and act a little different as he does after a regeneration and poof. Everything I know about him will disappear; I would no longer recognize him on the street. I would no longer be able to tell people about him. I had to assume that he was already changing without me.
I officially no longer knew the last Time Lord.
So I might as well get used to life with my human Doctor.
In time, I could love him. In time, he could love me. And life will be good.
Not perfect, not without the doctor.
But good is fine with me.
Good will be just fine.