Summary: This is something that was running through my head. Mostly just, Ferb freaking out after he finds out that Phineas loves him. Ferb is dating Vanessa. F/V. one-sided P/I. P/F.

Disclaimer: I don't own Phineas and Ferb and I don't know who does. The characters are out of character, I'll try and make them more in it. Takes place during the school year. The poems are mine. Oh, and Ferb talks a lot in this story. Sorry if your disappointed.

Legs entangled, arms surrounding a larger body, an entrance is entered, moans escaping mouths. "F-Ferb don't s-stop! Ahh-"

BEEP BEEP BEEP BEEP

Phineas sighs as he sits up, having yet another dream about him and Ferb. He looked over to the bed that holds the object of his affection and gets up, turning the alarm clock off as he makes his way to the bathroom to shower and change. Lately he hadn't been talking to Ferb that much, making excuses about homework when confronted, really as he thought about it, he hadn't been talking to anybody lately.

Turning the water to cold, washing away the effects of the dream the red head thinks back over all the changes he had been going through: it had started out as dreams of him and Ferb just laughing and kissing he had brushed them aside, he hung out with Ferb all the time it was only natural that he would have some strange dreams for his step-brother. He was getting closer to Isabella but his feelings for her, that were supposed to be getting more friendlier towards her were actually leaving. He found himself watching Ferb out of the corner of his eyes, then thinking about him, and his face kept going red so often around Ferb that he just had to walk away, keep away from him.

Even then though, he still thought it was natural. It wasn't until he saw Ferb's lips on Vanessa's that he finally admitted his feelings to himself. The feeling of seeing them together comes harder and harder every time he thinks about it and when he sees it. He could feel his breathing speed up as his chest seems to push in, trying to suffocate him, his knees feel weak as if they are about to give out for his weight. Pulling himself out of his mind he puts the water back over to hot and washes himself, trying not to think. As he gets out of the shower, he looks at himself in the mirror, dark crevasses under his eyes because he doesn't sleep very well, he looks so pale, he looks down at his dark clothes that he now wears instead of his usual red(orange?), white, and blue outfit. He walks back into his room, grabs his backpack, trying not to notice as Ferb is stirring from his sleep because of his alarm clock, walks outside and sits down next to the tree.

FERBS POV

Her laugh is like music to my ears, her smile seems to brighten even the darkest days, she is mine. How did I get so lucky? The only draw back to my relationship with Vanessa, is that Phineas never talks to me anymore, well that can't be Vanessa's fault because he was distant even before we got together. No time to think about that now though, me and Vanessa are on a date, we're having a picnic. She can cook! I don't think that I could be happier than right now.

BEEP BEEP BEEP BEEP

Sitting up, his eyes scan the opposite bed, as usual and as always, it's already empty. Frowning he goes into the bathroom to shower and change then heads out to the kitchen for breakfast. He sat thinking as he ate his cheerios. What is Phineas's problem anyway? I don't know what I did, he says it's the homework that's preventing him from speaking to me, but it started over the summer.

Ferb sighs as he stands up and walks out the door on his way to school. Vanessa meets him a few minutes later and they walk hand in hand to Ferb's school. As they neared the school, Ferb spots Isabella's and Phineas's heads disappearing through the door. He feels a light tightening in his chest as he turns to kiss Vanessa goodbye. She smiles as she walks back home and Ferb walks into the school to look for Phineas before class. He looks until he hears the warning bell, then walks to his class after visiting his locker, making it just as the final bell rings.

PHINEAS'S POV

Switching his thoughts from his life's problems to his English class, everybody had to write sonnets, he smiled faintly as he imagined everyone's faces as he reads the sonnet he wrote. On that thought, he stood deciding to get an early start in school as he starts the walk knowing that Isabella will arrive, as always to walk faithfully by his side like a little puppy.

"Hey Phineas! Did you write your sonnet? I wrote mine on puppies" Isabella said right on time.

Random how that came up. Phineas gave her a small smile as he nodded showing that he had written his. And they walked on, Phineas in silence and Isabella chatting away about homework. Walking into the school Isabella said bye to Phineas and went to her locker as Phineas went to his, got his books and went straight to class, not feeling like walking around. He sat there with his head on the desk, a faint smile still on his face at the thought of the looks on everyone's faces. At the warning bell he idly wondered where Ferb was, then went back to imagining the facial expressions and comments, then hoping that Ferb doesn't tell mom about my sonnet. He lifted his head as the final bell rang and Ferb came hurrying through the door.

The teacher began droning on and on and on (like teachers do), and then finally got to the part where we have to read our sonnets giving us numbers, I am number 8 and Ferb is number 7. He sighed as he loses himself in his daydreams, deciding to let himself feel worse than usual, and stared at Ferb. When Ferb stood up to read his sonnet, Phineas decided to listen in and heard,

"This is the sonnet I wrote:

Her silvery laugh, leaves me smiling,

It makes me want to always protect her,

To keep her safe from her creepy father,

Thoughts of her has my fingers dialing.

Her long dark hair, feeling soft to the touch,

Not knowing I had these feelings she brought,

Her soft brown eyes, showing her quiet thoughts,

I am aware that I love her so much.

People may frown on our relationship,

Our love for each other is very strong,

Please think this through and not get it all wrong,

Us together is more than just our lips.

Us together is like clouds in the sky,

If we aren't together, I hope I die."

As Ferb finished his sonnet, Phineas was almost certain that he couldn't get up to read his. He thought that he was going to be sick, but then he started to think of the shocked expressions that were sure to come, making him stand up but he sounded almost dead even to his own ears as he reads his sonnet,

"Looking down at his bleeding wrist, he laughs.

The red leaking from the wound is his life,

It is leaving him, because of the knife,

Admiring his wrist, he stabs his calf.

Leftover scars, reminding him to cry,

The world is mean, why can't it let him be,

The blood runs faster, why can you not see?

His vision is fuzzy, why can't he die?

The blade is sharp and cold against his skin,

It is resting now, but he can still feel,

The remembrance of the blood, it was real,

Hating life, but still knowing it's a sin.

Wishing to die, his living is a joke,

One last slash, it will work, slitting his throat."

He looks up from his paper at the now stunned room, he smiles proudly, it really was worth it, but as he remembers Ferb's sonnet, he started to feel the usual tightness and feeling that his knees were going to buckle, but he held strong as he made his way back to his seat.

Please review! And I'm sorry it's so short. The rest will be longer, I promise.