I've been planning a fic about Gibson based on "Sing Sing" by Marianas Trench

but then I listened to "Perfect" by Marianas Trench (again :P)

and it had a similar theme

and I got my thoughts together

^v^

-grungekitty

I'm exhausted!

Everyone's asked me to do something, everyone needs me to do something, and I'm asking even more of myself.

I'm pushing myself too far again! I have limits! When will I learn that!?

I just smile, nod, and tell them "yes".

I get overwhelmed all too often! With so much being asked of me, so much riding on me, and so much depending on me.

It's no wonder I'm not sleeping!

It's no wonder I'm not eating!

I'm starting to get pretty off balanced and I feel like I'm being drowned out!

Everyone keeps asking me for things! Everyone needs me to be something stable to depend on!

It's frustrating! The strain they put on me! But not nearly to the level I put on myself!

Everything has to be perfect, or else, I'll fail them.

And nothing is more frightening to me then failure. Particularly, failure to my family.

I convince myself that if it's not perfect, it won't do.

So I put projects first, above all else! Above my health, my physic, my social needs, everything! I'm slightly ashamed to admit that I fall into this behavior excessively.

Even though what they ask is intensely torturous, I do it anyways, because I want to be perfect.

I fear for what they may think of me if I'm not, or worse, the repercussions!

I'm so important to the team, being the doctor and the scientist, I can't afford to be less than perfect.

It's not a choice. I have to be stable! If I'm not, bad things happen!

I fear for the day I unravel. Which I will, if I continue under these circumstances.

Because even though they say it's "no big deal", "not important", or "not a priority , I will still treat it as a life or death situation.

No matter how thin I get stretched, I will strive for perfection.

At any cost, everything will be perfect.

If not, I face failure, something I can't stand.

It has to be perfect!

ok

that got a bit scattered!

I even reordered a lot or the lines

also used a couple lines from the songs

in the end, I think it turned out pretty good

and I had a couple ideas

*evil grin*

-grungekitty