This is a sequel to my previous story "Kara meets Danny". Enjoy! :)
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1. Far away
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He remembered it like it was only yesterday. The first time he had hold her in his arms not sure what had hit him. He was stunned by this beautiful woman who had stumbled to him, making him catch her before she would fall. And that woman was now his wife. The mother of his child.
He hadn't really given marriage any thought before. Sure he thought that eventually he would be caught up in life and some girl would marry him. But he never thought it felt like a freight train hitting you. Not that he knew literally how that felt. He never expected to feel like this. He knew from the start that she was The One. He didn't want anyone else. He couldn't imagine his life without this woman in his life. No matter what.
Sure their path to this point hadn't been easy. It was filled with rocky roads and hurt. She had hurt him in the first days when they had left for deployment in the Arctic. But what he had done to her at Gitmo was even worse. He wondered how she ever forgave him for that. First he had laid out his heart to her, to just take it all away by saying she had to stay away from him. He had then seen her in the helo bay, asking for a permission to join him and Tex, which made him hope she had come because she wanted to be close to him. He had looked at her seeing the hurt in her eyes, the uncertainty whether he wanted her there. Of course he had wanted her there. He had screwed up everything and didn't know how to fix things. If they could even be fixed.
Then something had happened. His world had literally stopped the day he met the Captain on deck during the vaccine trial. He had been going back and fort on the deck. Thinking why hadn't he asked her to not do it? But he knew he couldn't. Not after everything they had done. Broken the fraternization rules. Shaken the trust and respect of their fellow shipmates and the Captain. They were on thin ice as it was. And he wanted her more than anything, but he didn't know how he would make it happen. If she would take him back? He knew she loved him. He never knew he would feel so ecstatic to know she loved him back despite of everything he had done.
Thinking back to the surprise kiss he had felt on his lips as she had kissed him before she left to participate in the trial. Breaking off before he had a chance to say anything. To say that he wanted her.
But as the Captain came in front of him he feared for the worst. She was dying or dead. But when he instead informed him that Kara was pregnant. Pregnant with his child. He felt his heart skip a beat. Wondering what had happened. She had told him that she had things under control when he had asked her about birth control on the first night they were together. She had trusted him as well by not asking him to use a condom.
But the news of how the trial was going wasn't good either. He was going to have to say goodbye to her knowing she was carrying his baby. A proof of their love. He didn't want to burden her with the knowledge. He had been inside the tent holding her hand on her belly. Wanting to feel her soft skin on his, but through the gloves he was wearing, he didn't feel much. Wanting to have his hand on her belly where he knew their baby was growing. He tried his best to not loose his posture, but he couldn't do it. When he saw the blood come out of her nose. He knew it wouldn't be long. After everything, he was losing her too.
He was startled from his thoughts when he heard her voice. Then he remembered he was standing against the wall on the deck of the Nathan James on their way to Vietnam to spread the Scott Cure. He looked at the static laptop screen only hearing her voice, but not seeing anything. The video wasn't working. They had tried it before but something was jamming the video feed and he only heard her voice. "Tell Frankie that daddy loves him and I can't wait to meet him." He managed to say before the line disconnected. He shut the laptop and looked quickly at the horizon and took a deep breath to gather himself. To focus on the mission.
He never thought it would be this hard. He knew the drill from before. Emails here and there, phone calls if the lines were okay. Talking with his parents. But this was different. Because Kara mattered more to him now that she was probably the only thing in the world that was left of his family. She and their son Frankie, who was named after his best friend. He had lost Frankie too. He couldn't shake the feeling of disappointment he felt. He felt he was letting her down. He should have been there when she gave birth to their son. He should have been there to hold him. To hold her. He just had to hope she would understand.